JanaTiana

Yeah, so I’m on the wagon right now. Have been since Feb. 17/18. I went back to working night shift two nights per week and feel that because I’m going to making my body’s sleep-wake cycle be off, the last thing I need to do is put alcohol in it. I don’t know when I’ll drink again. I didn’t notice a huge difference in the way I feel after I quit. I don’t think that working nights has anything to do with not feeling different, because I just went back to nights this weekend. I have noticed that my skin looks a lot better!

Done in Aug. 2009, then hopefully to the OR…a lot of people who have gone through the same school as me have been hired at the Veteran’s hospital in the OR. The director of the OR there went to my school, about 25 years ago and now hires a lot of new grads from there. He’s also my current OR instructor, so I want to be able to get in good graces with the guy (without having to kiss his ass).

I still haven’t smoked.
I was waiting for the bus last night and someone lit up. The smell grossed me out at first and I imagined how horrible it would taste to smoke one now. But, then I thought about how in the past I haven’t liked the taste, but I ‘re-learn’ to like it. It dawned on me that I’ll probably always want one. Not that I’ll have a craving for it all the time, but that I might very well be one of those people who don’t smoke for years and then fall off the wagon. I remember a long time ago talking with a woman who hadn’t had a cigarette in about 3 years and I asked her if she still craves them. She said any time she gets more than a little drunk, when she’s stressed, and a few other things that I can’t remember now, would trigger her cravings. At the time I remember thinking that when I quit, I’d quit and think it was gross and never want one again. But now I’m starting to re-think that.