I really dislike making my ideas known.
Why?
Because in my brain, I’m sure that my idea will be attacked ruthlessly by everyone who hears it. This is completely untrue in most all circumstances, but due to conditioning for almost all of my childhood, it is deeply ingrained into my nature. This, however, is losing it’s control over me.
I am now more concerned with doing what I believe is right, rather than not being attacked. I think many of my ideas are at right, but never mention them. This is less true now. I have a huge hurdle to get over, but I won’t let it stop me any more. My biggest motivating force has been in my work, as I’ve come up with ideas and not mentioning them has actually caused harm once, and mentioning them just plain made things better most of the other times.
I no longer consider myself owning the luxury of the delusion that my ideas belong solely to me, and not the world at large.
“Don’t measure yourself by what you have accomplished, but by what you should have accomplished with your ability.”
—John Wooden
“Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does.”
—William James
Nov 08, 03:34PM PST | 3 cheers | 1 comment
Cubase 4 was what I first found midi composition on. I flourished using it. I later tried using Reason, which is ok, but didn’t quite jive with my way of working (although it’s intuitive style of linking effects was a joy).
I now have Cubase Studio 5, but have been super busy since the day it arrived on my doorstep. So far I’ve found a bunch of free VST (http://www.dskmusic.com/blog/ is a great source, he’s very talented)
Now I just need to resolve a clicking sound ruining the sound. Which I will fix as soon as I have time to read enough about it and what I can do with my soundcard’s buffer size.
After all that, I will make a new song (or 10) every week when I have time to work! Which I will have once I get back from Chicago since I will have Thanksgiving break from work.
Nov 08, 03:24PM PST | 0 comments
It’s hard for me to believe how hard this is for me to do. I tried to relax today and found it amazingly difficult.
I found some help here:
http://www.wikihow.com/Relax
I’ve just been so high strung for so damn long it’s hard to come back down. I’ve already started a lot of things on the relax list, and will try to do everything there to find what suites me best.
Oct 21, 06:49PM PDT | 0 comments
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