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Well! you know what? I struggled for a while to get this going but I think I’ve now pretty much developed a habit. Almost every evening after work, I sit in the ‘spare’ room with the radio on that my son gave me for christmas, surrounded by watercolour paints and things and … well, I’ve almost completed 3 of the paintings. That is to say that I’ve ‘cracked’ the thing I was struggling with in each of these 3 drawings so, the rest, I feel I will be easy after another chat with the lady.

A woman who I don’t know that well told me about an idea she has always had for a series of pictures that she’d like to see made real, if only she knew how to find an artist. Excited to find that I am an artist, she asked if I’d do them for her and I agreed.

That was over a year ago and I feel bad. What makes it even easier to procrastinate is that I don’t see her very often.

For some reason whenever I try, I seem to find it really hard to focus. I feel easily distracted and easily discouraged from this project.

Usually, even if I find a projectg difficult to approach, once I actually get started, it’s not long before I start to find some part of the drawing, painting or whatever really fascinating and/or satisfying or something and then I can’t leave it alone. I just get really absorbed and forget about the time, etc.

One good thing I’m finding, though, is that when I’ve had another look at some of the ‘false starts’ that I’ve given up on, they don’t seem too bad and I’m finding that, some of them, I don’t hate after all.

I’ve done a lot of office-based work (typing, secretarial, etc) which has mostly been unsatisfying. I’ts taken me most of my life to figure out what I actually want to do as a career. I met an OT on a course I was studying and the more she told me about her work was the more I realised that this was what I wanted to do. I wanted to find out more, so I visited some OT departments at hospitals & best of all, I got an opportunity to shadow a trainee OT who was visiting clients in the community. It was great.

I’ve now been accepted on a training course, which starts in September. I’m really looking forward to it, but I’ve had a few setbacks in the past, so I’m also a bit nervous that something might happen to stop me from succeeding.

So, I’m now at the stage of doing paperwor, getting vaccinations updated, etc. Watch this space…