So I have an idea and I started reading a book about starting a business so hopefully by this time next year I will maybe have something in the works.
I really hope so, I can’t stand this 9-5 office work anymore.
The guy I work with told me that once you do something 62 times it becomes a habit and you freak out if you don’t do it after that. Whether this is true or not I’m going with it. I went to the gym yesterday and today, so I only need sixty more times for it to be a habit.
I hope 60 sounds bigger than it is.
I just watched the entire British Series of “I Can Make You Thin” and I’m going to try and stick to this program for at least a month and see what happens, it seems really easy and I have nothing to lose at all.
I STILL REALLY NEED TO DO THIS!!!
I wish there was a free class or something, I’m so web-stupid.
Since I’ve gained weight I pretty much wear the same jeans, with an old navy tank top and one of about 4 sweatshirts. It’s getting old. I’m trying to lose a lot of weight but I’m going to stop waiting to be thin again to look like a girl.
This just makes more sense then eating food I don’t want. I’ve been doing this for a few days and its hard to see myself going back to when I ate food fast and finished my plate. We’ll see.
If I do well in school this semester, and lose some weight, than I can say I did this… we’ll see.
OK, i’m currently taking 4 drawing classes, I know all this school will benefit me if I take it as seriously as I have been. Drawing extremely well is so important for this goal, definitely more important than a degree.
I will do this once I lose 30 pounds, as a reward for myself. I know a thinner version of me looks good with a nose ring, but I’m not too sure about the fat me.
OK so, I just joined this website called sparkpeople.com… and its pretty much like Weightwatchers.com, only completely free… and it has a lot of motivational articles and recipes and forums. I hope it helps me get some sort of drive. I know I need to work out, I just need to accept responsibility for finding the time to do it instead of making excuses as to why I can’t.
I love animals, and I love making art. I would like to find a way to combine those things.
I still work there two days a week, and am taking classes online towards an illustration degree and attempting to freelance. It’s a little of a financial struggle but completely and totally worth it. I feel like I own my life again.
I think I will start this today, for real.
And I’m not going to let Wacom tablet drawings count either, I need paper and charcoal or pencils or paints.
I need to find this motivation, I mean I want to be an illustrator not a graphic designer anymore.
I think this is going to happen soon. I cannot take it anymore. I hope that freelancing will bring in enough money to pay my rent, I guess I’ll find out soon enough.
I signed the lease on Sunday, and now I am sitting in a huge (empty) room feeling completely happy and peaceful. Its going to take a while to completely furnish the place but I know it will happen, and it going to look awesome. I’ll probably start painting this weekend.
So incredibly better than living mith my parents. I am so happy I did this.
I’m going to say that i’ve done this. I just got this apartment I’ve been obsessing over and visualizing myself in. I just got a raise when I needed more money. Friends I’ve been thinking about have been showing up in my life in a positive way. I’m going to continue to study the law of attraction because I don’t want to forget how amazing this is and go back to living life without being empowered.
This has changed the way I look at life and I know so many more good things are on there way. And I find good things where I used to only see the bad.
I see this starting to work, I just got a pretty decent and totally random raise, and opportunities to make money on “side work.” I hope things go the way I’ve been visualizing beyond this, and I’m pretty sure they will. This is so exciting!
It’s been a long road and is still so far away. Maybe someday, I really want to.
