Jessie_belle

Going to a performing arts school for theatre-which I really do love. But I feel like I enjoy studying plays, literature, and so on more than actually getting up infront of a crowd and performing-which was my life and love a few years back-now that I’m a bit less of an exhibitionist-I’m not sure. I don’t think I could stand majoring in English. And my soul has been sold to horseback riding, half the time I’m traveling to competitions anyway-when I’m not competing I’m training for competitions. Something about moving to a city and trying to pursue theatre is appealing. I guess the image of it all, even if I were a starving artist something seems to draw me to it.

But can I picture myself doing it in twenty, thirty years from now? I can picture myself opening up a boarding/competition stable, and competing/training/owning high-quality horses, even when I’m old and decrepit I can still teach. What I couldn’t stand is moving out to the middle of no-where and being stuck. I have a horse now, and I want to be involved with it no matter what for the rest of my life. Naturally, it’s a big money pit, and when it is no longer socially acceptable or fair for my parents to foot the bills-I’m going to need a job where I can afford it. Which brings us to the boring 9-5 cubicle job I told myself I’d never get into. How in the world would I move to the city(and I’m far from the type that thinks that you need to be in NYC to act-if I want to act I can act in my damn basement as a makeshift theatre if I have to-but in order to generate income I’ll probably have to throw myself into it so much that I simply have to sacrifice horses).

I love writing. But as I said before, I could not stand being an English major.

I don’t even know. All I do know is that A. I have two different things that I really really love and devote myself to-which is not easily said for myself- that are complete opposites requiring different things in different places. B. I feel angsty and sentimental writing this.

I know that very few know what they want to do-even after they’ve done “it”(by that I mean, go to college, have kids, etc., etc.) – it would be nice to have some closure though. :)

I’ve been riding for a decade now and have been to hell and back from drill-seargant instructors, broken bones, concussions, lost confidence from falling, snobby people I’ve had to deal with, and some blantantly embarrassing, painful, horrible moments including a friend’s death while she was jumping, and hearing of fellow equestrians deaths.

But it’s probably the best thing in my life, it’s my escape, my sport, and hopefully in the future will become a livelihood-the simple things involved with these amazing animals make the large amount of money and time and sweat put into it all worth it. Something like seeing the horses running in the pastures, smelling the aroma of sweet fresh hay, or going for a gallop in a feild.

I’d certainly be willing to give anyone advice on where to find instruction, what to look for, and simple educational purposes.

It is a lot harder than it looks(making it look easy is the prime goal of many competitions), and if you want to be involved in competition or any more strenuous riding (showjumping, dressage, etc.) it’s very important to be in good shape for your safety, and in all fairness to the horse(can’t expect the horse to be in top-notch condition if you’re not =]).

My personal goal involving horseback riding(short-term) is to be thoroughly prepared for my first competition of the year to the end of the season. :)

Pictured is an older showjumping picture that reminds me vaguely of superman. :D

Today I didn’t even bother with the snooze button-I just pull out the plug as soon as it goes off.