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60 days has worked for me really well in the past… but I have a new quandary. I’ve worked with him platonically for many years. About 8 months ago I started to fall for him. He’s very married. We have a great relationship at work but have recently started to communicate on days off… not about work; just chit-chat. We don’t really flirt – just talk. We obviously like each other, a lot, but never “go there.” I think about him ALL the time and can’t wait to see him at work. I’m crushed when I see he has left for the day without saying goodbye. It’s gotten incredibly distracting and I know it can’t go anywhere. How do I stop falling for him when I see him five says a week and we work so closely together? He is on my mind far too often and I can’t seem to stop wishing with everything I have that we could be together. But there is no avoiding him for 6 days let alone 60…
jet stream's Life List
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1. lucid dream
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2. see the southern cross
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3. stop binge-eating
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4. stop being the first to call.
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5. 60 days
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6. Do another 60 Days! ROUND 4
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7. help stop global warming
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8. Celebrate Earth Day
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9. Finish Nature Girl
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10. Earn at least $100,000 in 2007
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11. Either improve my relationship or end it
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12. lose 10 pounds
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13. Start a new chapter
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14. Find a better way
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15. Go to Bora Bora
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16. stop thinking about "him"
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Days like today, are just harder than others. I’m in the midst of a family crisis and I need him so bad right now, but I can’t need someone who is only there sporadically and on his own terms. So I wont call… but sometimes his is the only voice that seems it will fill a certain emptiness. But be that as it may, I WONT CALL, I WONT CALL, I WONT CALL!
Well, it did seem he might’ve changed this past year, and true enough the last three times were as good as they’ve ever been. But he proved once again Friday night that really, nothing has changed; that he’s just as selfish, confusing, hurtful and capable of tricking and annihilating you as ever he was. You had enough of this shit yet? Yeah, you bet I have.
4/13 Sunday was day 1 and I’m already up to 4. You can do it. You stayed away 9 months before, and you were healthy, happy, and didn’t give a flying fk about any of this crap that’s got you in its undertow once again. Time to swim away to clear and warm waters. Keep going. There’re so many other things out there for you, but you’ll never know if you keep hangin’ around this Godforsaken place with the likes of him.
On your way! You rock, and you’re too normal, too loving, too kind, too genuine, and too good for his sorry ass!
