I'm doing 40 things
I have been dealing with the following.
Agoraphobia – fear of leaving a safe place. The anxiety attacks that i developed have made this worse. I don’t like being somewhere I know I’m not as safe as in my own house. However, I do not want to live in that fear because i won’t explore the outer world and what kind of life is that?
Arachnophobia – the fear of spiders. I hate spiders they scare the crap out of me.I can avoid these but what am I gonna do if i see a tarantula or something. God I would freak.
Coulrophobia – fear of clowns. This one isn’t severe really it’s just I can’t be around them and it’s only the scary looking ones like IT or Jack the Clown. It’s just dumb I know it’s dumb so I guess I’m almost there with this one.
Hypochondria – a preoccupying fear of having a serious illness. This is pretty much what’s causing my panic and anxiety and quite frankly I think I am getting a little better about this because a week ago I was contemplating seeing a doctor for a cat scan due to some tingling in my head, I was convinced I had something wrong but the truth is that I would be in major pain if this were true.
Thanatophobia – fear of dying. This has never really been a problem until recently. It scares the living shit out of me. The thought of not being here anymore makes me sick to my stomach. I don’t know how to get rid of this I am 20 years old. I should not be worrying about this. It kind of started to scare me when my grandma got sick and she told mom she was scared of what was to come. And then Heath Ledger died and it made me really think about it. Watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button did not help either. It’s gotten to the point where everytime I hear about death or dying I need to et up and move around and do everything in my power to forget about it. It’s the scariest thing in the world to me. I don’t know what to do about it this one is the hardest for me. I need help.
JoeyBonales's Life List
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1. Get over my phobias.
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2. learn to draw
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3. start a blog
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4. get braces
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5. learn to cook
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6. get my license
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7. practice yoga
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8. help people
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9. take more pictures
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10. learn piano
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11. get married
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12. get engaged
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13. start writing in livejournal again
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14. Identify 100 songs that make me smile every time they're played
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15. Define myself A-Z
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16. register for spring semester
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17. start a youtube channel
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18. Get good grades this semester
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19. Get the second season of Dawson's Creek
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20. stop biting my nails
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21. graduate college
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22. overcome anxiety
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23. Be more positive
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24. Finish school
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25. Get a job
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26. Be more organized.
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27. write a book
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28. Lose weight.
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29. Stop procrastinating.
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30. Become a teacher
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31. exercise more
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32. grow up
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33. buy nice clothes
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34. be in a play
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35. learn french
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36. adopt
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37. start a family
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38. have more self-esteem
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39. travel
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40. move to Portland
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