Judes525

w00t w00t my prayer & Bible time is going awesome so far. Holy Spirit’s showing me lots of cool, interesting things that connect in the Bible. Feeling recharged & refreshed, full of joy & songs. This is great! Pray that I keep it up :) Thanks God, for taking me back again and again!

floating in the ether of my mind. My stories are only as good as Plato’s forms unless I write them down. And yes, I’ve started many stories. But finished? None. Pathetic!

So I thought this goal was going well in the daytime when I was all optimistic about life, but then night came and I failed in my other goal to stop being needy and that just made me feel SO HORRIBLE and WORTHLESS that I just wanted to hurt myself so bad and I started fantasizing again like so many other times before of all these ways to torture myself and bring me pain. At least I didn’t physically hurt myself last night, but I really WANTED to. And I wish I could get to a point where I DON’T want to hurt myself for my own well-being. I wish I wanted to PRESERVE myself instead as if I were happy with who I am.