I’ve been working at my exercise routine/healthy eating plan for almost a month now. I’ve seen results, but not where I want them. I lost an inch in my hips, but my stomach hasn’t changed too much. I’m very confused, though. Some days my stomach looks like it’s getting flatter, and other days (such as today) it looks very bulgy at the bottom bit. I’m already very skinny naturally, plus I have a small frame, but I just have this blasted fat. It’s giving me a skewed perception of my body, making me not want to eat when I know I should. I still do eat, but I end up passing by some of my favourite foods.
Today I logged my food into SparkPeople for the first time in forever, and I noticed that protein is only making up 10% of my diet! I’m thinking that this may be my barrier. I think I should keep tracking and try getting all of my nutrients, and see what happens. Wish me luck- I want to have a flat stomach for summer, but sooner if possible!
Some days I’m really close, some days it feels awkward. I just have to keep stretching each day, I guess! I think I’m just too impatient, and I’m expecting to see results in one day.
I’ve always wanted to be more outgoing, mainly because I feel like such a loser at cheerleading and I have no one to talk to. My friend always pulls me into conversations (literally, she pulls me over), and I feel pathetic because someone else had to bring me over and I couldn’t come over by myself. It feels like everyone thinks they’re better than me and they wonder why I even joined cheer. Some days I will say what is on my mind at the time, but other days I feel scared to talk and I don’t say one word in class. When the whole class went to Tim Horton’s I was sitting alone for the longest time and I started feeling sad and embarrassed. Then some girls asked me to sit with them and I knew it was out of pity. They didn’t actually want me to sit with them. This makes me feel even worse about myself. It feels like I’m the loser out of all of my friends because they seem to be prettier and more interesting. :(