My ex was not who I thought she was – I don’t think that person ever really existed – just an idealized someone I made up in my head. We are all guilty of this – we place too much emphasis on the positive qualities of someone we love thus ignoring the realities of the other person.
I just re read my previous entry. I written that over 6 months ago and my life hasn’t changed at all. I still harbour the same goals but i’m so dam lazy and I procrastinate all the time.
I wish that in the next 6 months i will be doing something I love
Here is a picture of the moon which I taken outside a friend house. I like this photo because it was a spontaneous decision to photograph the moon and i’m really happy with the results
I handed some of my youtube channel to a friend who wanted to make films with me. The strange thing is he seems more enthusiastic then I am.
I always thought of myself as a filmmaker. The problem is I don’t actually make that many films. I make hundreds of news segments for work and when I go home I just want to chill out and relax. When I do make a film they are normally very personal one’s normally to a friend or a family member.
I suffer from being a perfectionist. When I want make my film I want it to be the best film ever but I have to remember I have to walk before I run. So now I decided I am going to make as many films as possible until I can better in my field.
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This photo was a photo call with the household calvary in London. I was working at the time and was doing a story about their training excercise practicing before the wedding of Prince William and Kate Middleton
This was a photo i taken at church. I really like the framing of this picture and the depth of field :)
I had a Canon 550D for 2 years now and I’m afraid I may have outgrown it. The camera is suffering from wear and tear and I notice that little things are not working. I seem to be taking it in for repairs all the time. My friend who works for canon told me that the 550d was the camera people start of with. The camera they put in the drawer and only use it for special occasions. He said I probably overused my camera and its time to upgrade it.
Maybe hes right. I did take my camera across America visiting 12 states on a once in a life time road trip, a European road trip, i photographed world leaders, wild life, famous people. I’m going to post a few of my photos on 43 things as a tribute to my lovely camera whom I will always love dearly.
I have so many projects coming up that it’s killing me just thinking about them. Everyone says that i should complete one thing at a time. The problem is that my projects are HUGE. My occupation is a video journalist and 2012 is shaping up to be the busiest year ever with the Olympics and the Queen diamond jubilee to cover. My personal life and goal is to make comedy films that will entertain the public with my unique brand of sense of humour. I’m tired of doing news. I want to make something that will make people laugh. In the end i have so many projects that its going to be a while before i’m going to finish any of them
Next year i’m planning to go on another epic road trip (location to be announced..)
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For as long as i can remember my English has always been terrible. I often have problems with my spelling and grammar. The most embarrassing thing is that i am indeed English. I was born and lived in the UK my whole life. The voice in my head is currently speaking in English.
I don’t know why i have this problem. I always jumble up my words and bugger up my grammar whenever i type anything. When i re read what i wrote i know there’s something wrong but for the life of me i can’t see it. A lot of people correct me on my grammar. I have a lot of foreign friends who ask me to correct them on the English grammar in their essays. How am i meant to help them with their English if my one was terrible.
A lot of the time my difficulty with English absolutely destroys my confidence when I want to write something. this time i deliberately didn’t check this entry for mistakes so you can see how poor my English really is
I quite like talking to people. Strangers especially, as odd as it sounds i like to study them. I like 43 things because i like listening to people hopes and dreams. I think that’s what makes people interesting.
Not what you do for a living? or where your from? When i meet a stranger i asked the question what makes you happy? what’s your dream for the future?
I don’t really feel like a failure to be honest. I made a couple of mistakes in my life but i haven’t done anything to make me feel like i’m complete failure. I’ve done a lot in my shirt life and i always have a story to tell and I’m looking forward to what the future might bring but then again i’m well aware of me slipping back and going back to my old ways.
I have such high expectations on my life that sometimes i can’t help but feel like something missing.
Life too short to keep looking backwards
I need to know more about why i am doing what i am doing. I need to make more films to get more subscribers but i feel so uninspired at the moment. I think my work is killing me. Robbing me of enthusiasm for life. I need to get on this project 2011 is ending pretty soon….
Thanks for the 105 people who subscribed to me
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Help others with their lists?
hmmmmmm…. i would love to say i have helped a lot of people but to be honest i be mainly helping myself.
Personally, I don’t think i been a good friend lately. I been busy looking after my own individual goals that i neglected to think about my friends too much.
I don’t feel too bad but i feel i can do a lot more but sometimes i need to look after myself before i can help others.
Anyway here’s a picture of a cute puppy
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I have no idea. How to do this i can start by making films but films of what? my life? i don’t think anyone be interested in that.
Heres a brief synopsis of my idea of my channel :S
I created my little Naive Panda project for my American road trip film a couple of years ago. All I wanted to do was to forget about my troubles and follow through with one of my dreams. The trip may or may not be what I imagined it to be, but good or bad it made me into the person I am today.
I don’t want to be a internet poster child for heartbreak. I’m going to change all that.
Life is short. The Naive Panda is here to remind us that we can inspire each other through amazing stories and adventures of things that do happen in this world. Life can be rubbish I know, but let’s take two seconds to stop and laugh.
I have quite alot of people who subscribed to me. I don’t really know alot of them.They rarely talk, Just the ones who added me on facebook.I do enjoy reading their uopdates and i roughly know about the characters from what i see. they all seem like genuine nice, funny people. Maybe i should write about them?
add me on facebook then i can get to know you better ;)
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I been thinking about doing something romantic for someone becuase of boredorm I wonder how would she feel if i recorded a version how deep is your love by the bee gees or what about a acoustic version of baby by justin beiber. God i’m a utter dork!
People think i’m mean and cynical the truth is i’m like that because i don’t want to get too close to anyone incase they will hurt me but from time to time i do like to be nice to people and make them feel good about themselves. I find compliments and chocolates work well :p
Just over a year ago i lost my job, lost my gf and decided to take all the savings i had blew it all on following my dream of going on a road trip across the United States. I took with me video camera and a camera cataloging my thoughts, dreams and what i want seen and done. I’m so happy i done this but i’m having a hard time trying to describe what exactly happend when i was out there. I just need that little extra encouragement and incentive to do it
Just over a year ago i lost my job, lost my gf and decided to take all the savings i had blew it all on following my dream of going on a road trip across the United States. I took with me video camera and a camera cataloging my thoughts, dreams and what i want seen and done. I’m so happy i done this but i’m having a hard time trying to describe what exactly happend when i was out there. I just need that little extra encouragement and incentive to do it
