KW0990

I have been bulimic for about a year now. i am almost 17 years old. i actually haven’t been on this site for awhile now though i made my account about a year ago when i wrote my first entry which i just read. At that time i wasn’t bulimic but i talked about how i thought i had a problem. Well i was right. Now i am bulimic. I am seeing a therapist and a nutritionist and i am also on meds but nothing is really helping. I really want to stop before my health gets any worse. I am already constantly tired and i am bruising all the time and getting bumps on my tongue. i don’t want my teeth to get yellow and fall out. Throwing up does not help lose weight i dont know why i do it but i want more then anything to stop.

Sometimes i don’t know what to do anymore. Every day i am constantly struggling and i feel like its controlling my life. I used to be extremely anarexic and i thought i overcame it but apparantly i was wrong. It’s not as much as i don’t eat but im constantly thinking about it.. constantly obsessing about food and how much i have eaten.. i will go on a binge and then not eat and its this constant cycle that i can’t get rid of. I always want to make myself throw up and i’ve tried but i just can’t do it. I feel like nobody understands and sometimes i feel like i honestly can’t go on living like this. I am obsessed with my weight and exercise and basically everything that has to do with my body. I don’t know what to do but I really need help becuase i can’t keep doing this every day, it’s ruining my life.