So I did it. I mailed the letter. He responded with I’ll always be your friend. What do you do when at 22 you have already met the man you want to spend the rest of your life with? When for everyone one you meet all you can think is that well you’re nice and all but you’re no so and so? Then what? I guess I just keep looking… But it is so hard.
KaliAspen's Life List
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1. surround myself with positive people
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2. moderate my drinking
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3. quit smoking for good!
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4. become a more outgoing person
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5. find a decent job
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6. pay off all my bills
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7. go back to school
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8. marry my soulmate
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9. forgive my friends for stabbing me in the back
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10. do pilates three to five times per week
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11. Find something bigger than me to believe in
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12. Lose 25 Pounds
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13. be happy with who i am today
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14. be a more beautiful person
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15. speak my mind - tactfully and thoughtfully
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16. be comfortable in my own skin
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17. believe in myself
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18. find happiness
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19. find good friends and be one
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20. be more understanding of others
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21. have something horrible happen and not immediately think about how good it would feel to hurt myself
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So, I did it. I’m living by myself. I love it. I hate it. It changes from minute to minute. I love that the entire place is mine. I can do whatever I want whenever I want without concern for anyone else. But at the same time I miss people. I get lonely a lot. I spend a lot of time trying to be around people. Its hard. But worth it. So many people think that I won’t make it six months there. I am out to prove them wrong. I can keep my own company and enjoy it. Its just different.
And thats ok.
So I have felt trapped by my surroundings, fleeing seemed to me to be the only way that I could become happy. I’m not so sure now. I don’t want to live in Boise forever, but I do at least for now want to stay.
The way people can change and effect other’s lives amazes me. For the good and the bad. And it is truly wonderful when they choose to change lives in a positive way. When they make you feel loved and wanted right where you are.
