Karmarules

Well I’m not feeling so frusterated today. I’ve accepted that I’m broke and I simply can’t afford any pot right now. My kids come first. I’ve decided to use this current situation to attempt to keep my brain focused on anything but pot. I’ll make it through the night, accept I may not have many friends left. I was visiting a fellow Chronic, who was out too. But she had a friend coming to visit, and well I actually felt Jelous because she was also talking about going to the food bank, and asking for only a few items. Meanwhile I’m literally wasting away, trying to make sure my kids don’t go hungry. So I concluded although I am jelous and pissed off, it is ultimatly MY PROBLEM. And well, only one person can deal with it. ME I need luck LOL
I am going to join Belly Dance lessons.

Does anyone else feel that way??!!!! You know I’d be able do handle this bullshit much better if I wasn’t in such a shitty position financially.

I can’t do it, I am miserable, and angry, and I just can’t quit. I’m also broke, and pretty much feeling like giving up everything!!