KassyRoo

My husband is frustrated with trying to help me. He forced me to call a residential treatment/rehab type center last week. I was told I would have to be there for 90 days. There is nooooooooo way I would leave my 6 year old daughter for 90 days. I’ve got to do this on my own. I have been taking Norco since February. My doctor prescribed me 10 a day, but I always take more. Before the Norco I was taking Vicodin for about 7 years. I am taking these meds for chronic migraines. It seems to be the only type of meds that work for me. I didn’t take any while I was pregnant. I didn’t have any migraines during my pregancy, which seems to me that they are caused by changes in my hormone levels. I used to take the vicodin at the first sign of a headache, then I began to abuse the meds, taking them more in a preventative way. I would take a couple when I woke up in the morning to give me a pick-me-up. It always seemed to improve my mood and my energy. Then my body needed more to do the same thing with the meds. I became more resistant to it and needed more. I wish I could just take one at the start of a headache and be done with it, but my body craves them and I can’t stop myself from taking them. I have withdrawl symptoms when I don’t take it. I have an upset stomach, the shakes, I sweat uncontrollably, and I really feel like crap. I don’t have health insurance so the meds are also very expensive, but that’s not my biggest problem. My problem is that I don’t know where to go for help or for counseling. I absolutely will NOT leave my daughter and go to a rehab center. Has anyone else been through this? Also, I am depressed. Extremely depressed.

is overtaking my life. I am unable to get out of bed everyday. I can’t pull myself out of this. I’ve been taking Cymbalta for about 3 weeks, but I don’t see any improvement. I am a mom and I have responsibilities that I am not doing my best with. I don’t have a job right now and I don’t have health benefits, so I am going to look for help from the county tomorrow. I need to all that I can for my daughter. I need to the best person and the best mom that I can be for her. I will get better. I will.

I think this is one of the cures to my depression. I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning unless I’ve got something exciting to look forward to. I’ve been at my worst during the last four weeks or so. Today I didn’t get out of bed until 7 p.m. I didn’t take Kema to school today because I didn’t have it in me to fight with her this morning about what she was going to wear or not wanting to brush her teeth. We all went back to sleep and she didn’t wake up until 11 a.m. I was planning to take her to school when she woke up, but I didn’t have the will to get my ass out of bed. So… now this is affecting my daughter’s education too. I’ve been taking Cymbalta for the past three weeks, but I don’t feel like I’m getting better yet. I’m going to look into getting help tomorrow morning. I hope.