Kattikins

I am now nearing the end of my time in Malta. It is a bitter sweet goodbye. I have met amazing people here, and I will miss them greatly. I am glad England is close enough that I will be able to visit. On the other hand it has been over four months since I saw my best friends and I cannot wait to see them!

I learnt a lot about myself living abroad. When I moved here I didn’t know anyone. Even my housemate I had only known for a few months and not closely. This meant that I was not restricted by my homeself and have, to an extent, discovered what parts of me are me and what parts are a facade to please my family and friends.

I do not mean this in a bad way but I now understand who I want to be. Rather than what other people have come to expect of me. And to be honest I am not much different.

I have missed my boyfriend a lot but to go through a year living in a different country and still have the level of love and trust for him that I do has really shown me what we have together. It has made it worth it.

I highly recommend people to actually do this if they have been toying with the idea. It may not be the easiest thing on your list to acheive but it is rewarding in more ways than I can express.

Out of all my “things” this is the one I am most embarrassed about. I have thought about deleting it, but I would still want it. And no one knows who I am.

I never saw myself as a sentimental nutcase, and I certainly promised myself I’d never fall in love (with my three parents having 6 marriages between them and only one still standing). And here I am, a mere 21, pining for a boy who is 1000 miles away. “Silly Katty” as he’d say to me.

But he doesn’t dance. He hates it. And after my last entry I did get to dance with him just us on New Years Eve, which was lovely. But I want to dance on the dance floor with a lad like I did when I was single – only now I don’t want to do it with anyone but him.

The other evening I was feeling a bit homesick and wanted to stay in and feel sorry for myself. The my flat mate asked me if I fancied going for a drink.. I really didn’t but I remembered I’d made this a to do task so said “yes”.

We remembered seeing this little pub round the corner, it looked like an old man cllub so were a bit worried but decided to go in anyway. There were too lads at the bar and we got talking and they were from England, and then their sister joined them and all my homesickness went away and we made some new (and lovely) aquaintences on the island! And ended up staying up and talking like old friends til 2 in the morning.

I am definately going to try and keep this one up as it opens so many opportunities!