that I was really good friends with.
She used me in the worst way.
I have since held a grudge.
I have decided this is childish.
So.
Yesterday I decided to talk to her in a civil manner.
I am so proud of myself.
I think that I am close to sealing this one off.
(:
I have to see this skyline…
How am supposted to see this and not want to just get lost inside of it. I want to see all that it has to offer. I want to go to local stores. See the local music.
I just want to experience it.
... Back together.
Go figure.
I should have known this would happen.
Let’s see if I can do a better job this time.
We broke up.
We didn’t have time.
I still love him.
I think I always will.
We just weren’t meant to be.
End. Of. Story.
I have fallen further behind in this goal than when I started. I feel so disconnected.
Last night I decided to just dive into my Bible and look for answers.
I found all the answers and more. God showed me what He wanted me to be last night… Even though it won’t happen over night I still know that I have to change…
Because…
He died for me. I need to live for him.
Well… My room is clean. I mean REALLY clean.
Now…
If I can keep it this way for over two weeks….
I’ll check this goal as done!
w00t!
My school doesn’t allow plastic spacers this “thing” will have to wait even after softball season.
I only have 12 more weeks left of school anyway…
I guess we will see what happens…
Hmph.
I figured that I really don’t want to do this anymore…
Not because that I can’t…
I just don’t want to…
I respect kaleeena so much. On one of her things she list her weight every Friday…
I don’t know if I could do that…
Maybe this Friday I will put my weight up here… Perhaps the embarrassment of everyone knowing how much I weigh will fuel my desire to actually start doing something about it…
No one can laugh though…
Mmkay?
My boyfriend and I are about to break up…
It is so sad, because I want to be with him, but at the same time we don’t have what we used to…
We have only been dating for a year and a half, and I feel that if our relationship has changed so much over that small period of time what should make me think that we could really last…
Does that make any sense at all?
Since I got my new camera for Christmas I have been taking photos none stop.
So…
I am done with this one.
... that you are supposted to drink half your weight in fluid ounces of water a day…
I heard it from a med. student, so he couldn’t be just making it up…
Hmm…
He told me that I was dehydrated and that is probably why I was retaining water…
Is that a nice way of calling me fat?
Pfft.
I think that it is safe to say that I don’t bite my nails anymore…
I actually have to file them down because they are long.
Ahhh. I am going to check this one as donneee!
I found it very surprising that I was the first (and only at the time) that wanted to do this. I guess our generation is really just going down the drain.
sighs
That or I am just old fashioned…
My friend and I used to do this often.
We were obsessed with LOTR.
We used to pig out so much we got sick. She moved away to college and I wish that I got to have those nights with her again.
I am in a really bad place with my personal walk with Christ. I feel like I will never get my faith back. I find myself doubting all the time. I feel miserable about it.
Some bad stuff happened at my church, and I wasn’t comfortable going back until recently. It really harmed my relationship with God. I know that I shouldn’t have let one person’s rude actions do that to me. I wish that I could take it back.
I need everyones prayers.
My boyfriend treats me so wonderfully.
I just feel like I don’t treat him as well as he treats me. Of course there are things that he does that I hate, and sometimes I feel like I am paying him back for all those times.
Maybe I am just mean.
I have always been messy.
Since it is Christmas holidays I am going to go home and just throw myself into cleaning my room.
Hopefully it will get done this time.
Wish me luck!
