KikiScorpio92

I need to get back here! I realised I like my belly with a little something haha :)

Almost there. ALMOST!

Don’t give up guys feeling discouraged :) xxx

“Her lips on his could tell him better than all her stumbling words.”

- Margaret Mitchell.

Perfectly desbribes me :)

1 year and 3 months counting :)

Gone to get my vision board today. Can’t wait to start this properly :)

As I have done this before I have a better perspective on the love I already have for myself. This year I named the year love and health because mentally I’m stronger and through all the things I do I must love myself and project it into my passions which at current is writing, reading, my boyfriend and travel. I can’t wait to do this all over again. It’s always the best to know you can love yourself over and over again :)
Good luck to all on your goals this year xxx

I’ve managed to get 2 litres of bottled water down a day, the breakfasts are so on point. Now to tackle the lunch and dinner hours and then the JUNK!

i made my first entry here in 2009 and now 2011 i’m slowly feeling where i stand. it took a long time but i’m so excited for the future..

I just got into a relationship( 1 month and counting..) and he is looking at as serious long term which i don’t mind it just he telling me ‘the l word’ already and he can tell i’m holding back but I guess it’s only because when I gave myself to another he turned around and pretty much said ‘i don’t care’. It’s only been a month he needs to give me time to attempt to love him back.

he makes me smiles a lot so i guess i’m making progress..

A reminder e-mail has made me think I want to love myself allover again, it’s an incredible feeling and I would go through it all again, and again, and again.

I’m hopeless at completely things. Its worse at school cause it’s my last year and coursework deadlines. I failed that but after being told so many times “if oyu get into this habit your be like this the rest of your life” i’m finally starting to get. But I know I got a long way to go :)

I can say being a teen and keeping your weight right for you to function well is tough. There’s so much pressure on us to keept fit and thin these day that some of us have eating disorders. I’m that type of person who starts something but never finishes. But, untl this year keep a flat a stomach gets easier and easier and you just look in the mirror and think well, it does pay off to do it!. It’s all about organising time and keeping focus. Now just need to cut out food habits lol.

:)

it’s like i try to tell others i’ve never smiled but in my pictures and how i truly feel, i don’t smile i smile when i laugh but genuinely i’ve never had something to smile about in my life yet and it burns me a lot. :(

every day,every night is a struggle for me. i revamped my self in 2007 becuase i was just really ,truly unhappy with myself.. i lost friends, and my grades at school were okay. 2008 was the change i need but everytime i lay down at night even though i’ve had good day and good time there’s a clear thought in the back of mind that says “am i truly happy” it upset just thinking about it and i have them times where i cry so hard to be like other people happy& free. it’s being haunting me sinceiwas little and i don’t think i can cope with life much longer :(

it’s like they say, you can be in a crowded room but feel like the loneliest person. you just wake up every morning and think will this be the day my life really starts andsome get the way i think and where i come from. i havw friends but not many understand all my ways of think and just avoid trying to understand or try to but it’s impossible. i’m so run by my emotions that it frutrates me and it would be great if someone could walk in my shoes one day and know what it’s like to “misunderstood”.

:)

i’m in my last year of secondary school.. i still have time to decide but one thing i’ve always wanted to do is travel the world and find that ultimate sanctuary.i want to be a psychlogist but i know there’s so mcuh i need learn about myself and others before i decide what to do “with the rest of my life” :)

I need someone to have a safety net once in a while for me to bounce back on when things get tough. To be better for my family and for the world … :)

I live in my home with my brother and mom but doesn’t quite feel like home, one day I hopefully will find what it is and what is like to say “i’m home.”

xx