I'm doing 11 things
So, I went to my first therapy session 4 days ago. Nothing special happened. No advice. Nothing. I just answered a bunch of questions and she set me up with another appointment. Now I am at work and feeling like I won’t make it through my day again. I am trying to not go home. I think that if I do, I will lose my job. I need this money. I really hope that my therapy helps. She said I may want to try anti-depressants. I am willing to give that a shot. I’m not getting much work done today. I’ve been having to distract myself in some way to stay at work. If I just tried to work straight through I would already be home by now. I’ve been here for an hour and a half. Almost every part of me wants to walk out of here. But I have this part of me that needs to take care of my family. I am crying at work. I don’t know how to stop this from happening. I just really need to get out of here.
Karen's Life List
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1. go to the gym 3 times a week
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2. lose weight
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3. Beat my depression
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4. To live instead of exist
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5. Never stop learning
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6. build a personal library
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7. Move to New York
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8. paint all my warhammer army
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9. Collect all of the Druchii
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10. Get my AA degree
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11. Buy a House
12,591 people
How I did it: I read a lot of books. The God Delusion was amazing and is now in my 5 books of all time. I have the support of my husband. I spent many days crying about it. I had to question everything and I feel like I lost myself for a while. I just kept searching for the truth. Read how I did it…
Yesterday I was at work and I started crying uncontrollably for no good reason. I cried for about three hours straight. I had to leave work after being there for only 2 hours. This is the first time it has creeped into my professional life. I’m thinking I should get help, but I am scared and I don’t know how to go about it.
I was working on my manequin last night and 4 hours went by without my noticing. I love doing hair. I finally found the job that doesn’t feel like a job!
