I FINALLY GOT IT FINALIZED AND EVERYTHING I WANTED WAS GRANTED!
I FINALLY GOT IT FINALIZED AND EVERYTHING I WANTED WAS GRANTED!
I got my first tattoo! I LOVEEEE IT! And I oh so can’t wait until I can go back and get more. I’m addicted already, LOL! I was on such a high after I got it done. It wasn’t painful to me, just there was discomfort. It costed me $130.00 plus $10 tip but oh so freaking worth it! I’m very pleased! I went to Inkredible Ink. :-)
I’ve been working on trying to be more social. I’ve been getting out of my apartment and going out with either my roommate or some friends. I’m starting to meet new people and making new friends. It’s going good. :-)
Next week I’m meeting with my lawyer to go over all the paperwork and final things and to sign the last agreement paper. I’m so excited, I can’t wait!!!!! YIPPIE!!!
Well, I’m going clubbing this weekend with some friends and I have decided that before I go, I’m going to get a tattoo. I still very much so want my son’s name and such done, but it’s going to be pricey. I think its like $10+ per letter and my son has 8 letters in his name. I will have to wait and save up for that one. For now though, I will get something without letters in it. LOL! I hope I have enough money to go get one done…
I don’t know what has happened, but lately I am feeling less and less ugly. I am down to 180-185 pounds, size 14. I’m getting out of my apartment more, going out with friends to clubs and what not… getting all dressed up, hair done and make up… the whole works and last night I had a party and a camera was passed around and I saw the pictures today when I developed them and there were some of me and I looked at my pictures and thought to myself…. “wow, I actually look good there”. :-)
I LOVE MY TONGUE RING! SMILES It is perfectly fine now, doesn’t hurt and I’m talking as well as eatting normal.
I’ve been trying to NOT sleep all into the afternoon if I go to bed late and it’s been a bit of a pain to do. Work has me working “closing” shifts (I’m not getting out till 11:30pm-12:30am) and then I come home and stay up till late then I’ve been forcing myself to get up in morning.
I stepped on the scale today… I’m at 187 pounds and I went and bought two new pairs of jeans on Friday at Ross, both size 14. YAY YAY YAY! That is a total of 93 pounds that I have lost in the last 14-15 months! It is totally awesome to be able to say I actually lost all that weight despite how long it has taken. When I first started out, I had made goals. My goals were to get from 280 to 200 and then from 200 to 180. Now that I am 7 pounds away from reaching my second goal, I have to wonder if I should go and try for 160 or even 150??
I feel so proud of myself! :-)
My ex and I have talked everything out dealing with our divorce thru two phone conferences and my lawyer is typing up the paperwork now. All we need to do now is sign and then she said after that, we (me and her) go to court and it should take about 5 minutes. Then it is done. I can’t believe it! It’s taken soooo long for this to happen… I’m trying not to get too happy though as my mom says “Don’t count your chickens before they hatch”
Cleaning my house is not the problem, it is keeping it clean that is the problem! SO I guess I am 1/2 ass there on this goal, I just need to learn to keep it clean.
Why can’t I feel pretty? I just don’t understand why I have to hate the way I look so damn much and I don’t understand why no matter who tells me that I’m pretty, I just don’t buy it. I was 280, size 24 back in September of 2004 when I started my diet, I went on a diet to be more healthy and to help myself feel pretty. I’m now down to 200, size 16 and yet I still don’t feel pretty. Family, friends…. you can be anyone and I just don’t buy it whenever I am told.
I don’t think I’m pretty, I don’t feel pretty… I don’t get it. I just wish I could feel pretty….. I just wish I could look in the mirror and love what I see… I just wish…
According to my scale, I now weigh 200 pounds. I’m not sure how I lost like 23 pounds in 2 weeks, but I did. I think it was because I was really really sick. Still size 16 though and eatting better now. I’m losing weight for two main reasons: 1. To be healthier and 2. To feel pretty because I didn’t feel pretty as big as I was…
I’ve been on a diet since September of 2004. I started at 280 and now weigh in at 223 pounds, I’ve lost 57 pounds total and have about 50 more to go. Lately though, my weight has been maintaining so I need to figure out a way to jump start my diet again. I’m thinking it is because I picked up on drinking soda and am back to eating more junk type foods because of my late hours at work and not being home to eat lunches and even dinners. Time to get strict again and cut back. I believe I can do this.
I’m talking a little better and can eat a few more things. Doesn’t hurt as bad, but swelling keeps coming and going.
Well, I got my tongue pierced finally. I got it done 24 hours ago and here is some info:
It hurts (LOL) Or atleast hurt me when it went through. I can’t eat! I’m having such a hard time eating. Ice cream and mashed potatoes, Slim Fast Drink is about all I have been able to eat.
My tongue is swollen, hurts off and on, can’t talk normal, etc.
Still not done, oh well… maybe I’m not suppose to get it done.
This feels like it is taking FOREVER to get my divorce finalized. I don’t know if it is because we have a child together and what not OR if it’s just my luck. throws hands up I just want it done and over with, I need to move on with this part of my life….get the asshole out of my life in this department…..POINT BLANK….
Ok so I think I will finally get it done! (LOL) I’m nervous, scared and etc about it but I’m sure a lot of other people get that way 2. Sooo anyways, I get paid on Thursday and don’t work Friday or Saturday so I’m thinking that Thursday night would be the perfect time (after I get out of work) to get it done! Now if I ACTUALLY go and get it done is another thing, but I do have plans to get it done… I’m such a chicken shit! LOL..
I got some ideas so now its just about deciding on which one to actually do… they all seem good to me, but just not sure yet… perhaps I will have to end up getting more than one! LMAO! No, but seriously, I have time to decide because I have to wait till I can get some extra cash and of course get the guts to get one! LOL!