Five months ago my father was diagnosed with stage four kidney cancer and some days I feel like I don’t know up from down. I come from a very close family and my dad has been my rock my whole life. I’m scared all the time these days. I’m not ready for my dad to not be in my life. I want him to be here when I get married and when I have children. I don’t think that’s going to happen anymore.
LaLa37's Life List
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1. fall in love with someone who really loves me
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2. travel more
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3. spend more time with the (true) friends I have
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4. take better care of myself mentally
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5. view the world through the eyes of children more often
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6. run away for a few days without telling anybody
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7. Have sex outside in a thunderstorm
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8. learn to set boundries
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9. find at least one thing each day that makes me happy and record it everyday for a year
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10. be more spontaneous
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11. go skydiving
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12. live my life for me not for anyone else
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13. learn how to be happy
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14. stop worrying so much
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15. love myself
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16. tell the people in my life how much they mean to me
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17. read the bible again
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18. be more decisive
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19. have kids
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20. volunteer more
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21. Make new friends
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22. have sex under a full moon
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23. de-clutter my house and classroom
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24. donate old clothes to charity
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25. kiss in the rain
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26. take the time to splash in puddles
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27. learn to play golf
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28. save money
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29. learn to say no without feeling guilty
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30. write in my journal more often
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31. learn about the stock market
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32. Visit all 50 States
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33. Cope with my father's cancer
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Recent entries
Scared
6 months ago
Untitled
15 months ago
My dad has said he will pay for me to do this but I have to wait until next summer because the way I have done things lately he’s afraid I will hurt myself. ;o) So, next summer I’m going to go skydiving!!!
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15 months ago
I always love going to the beach! This year I went out to North Carolina and went to the coast out there (one of my favorite beaches!) and to the Oregon coast.
