Langoustine

That would be fun and funny!

A few more tiny little pounds and I will be there. Right now I am trying not to regain what I so painfully lost. Time for exercise, and watching what and why I want to eat…

Kicked out the man I love, yes I did and I know I did what needed to be done even though it hurts real good. Once I am over it, things will open up for me. Living with a drunk no matter how talented may be cannot go well. I am sure of it just as sure as I am about letting him go is the way to go no matter how deep the pain I feel right now…

Yes I did ! And it hurts because I do love him but he was destroying me and I was losing my own self-respect putting up with it. I did it, now I have to live with it and make the best of it and I will. Good bye Mister, I thought I was your soulmate, but enough is enough… ouch it hurts, but I know time heals the deepest wounds if you just look forward… You taught me some valuable stuff and I am moving on with what I learned.

I found the lessons I had to learn, wasn’t easy but worth doing.

Gratitude for having tryed even if I didn’t allways got my way, I did my best and every success has been truly appreciated if by no one but by myself.

Keeping my 2007 Major Targets in sight and doing even tiny iddy bitty steps towards each one got me very close to where I wanted to be at the end of 2007.

Its about staying focused on what really matters and not taking my sight of it. A daily routine worth doing!

Life is so much better for both of us. His first little concert with his new band last week was a total success! He admitted that he plays better sober. He started writing and recording a new blues song this week. I think now his true potential has chance. Watch out Eric Clapton LOL..

He decided to quit on October 22nd. It was his decision and he’s doing it for himself

if you really want to.

.. appreciating where I am now and working on improving myself daily has now become a habit for me.

... making the best of the past by learning from it

That is the key for me.

... as far as cigarettes goes…

It was overwhelming, tedious, emotional, confusing and than some but I did the best I could and submitted the most essential documents to a good attorney. Now I just need to organize the rest of this mess so that I can find additional documents I might need later on. Meeting with the lawyer in itself was a challenge for me, but now that I made the first step in the right direction I can focus on other important things.

..is telling me that I will feel better if I start working on this overwhelming legal stuff regardless of how I feel about it, so why aren’t I doing it??? I must do something by next wednesday and get it out of my head!

Hasn’t been drinking but of course is not in top shape either. No strange behavior, mood swings nor cravings for drinking… He is of course still in a lot of pain, taking less medication and trying to eat well in order to regain the weight he lost. He said he would never drink again like he did… wouldn’t that be nice!

I would be wise,
keep your mouth shut,
don’t advertise your man
Don’t ever sit around
Holding no conversation
Explaining what your good man do you

Cause in linvin in our days
ain’t no good
They laugh in your face they try to steal your man from you
So be wise, keep your mouth shot don’t adevertise your
Some women nowadays,
Lord they ain’t no good
They will laugh in your face,

your good man really can do

Your best girlfriend, yeah
she might be a highbrow, yeah
she changes clothes 3 times a day
What you think she’s doing now,
while you’re so far away
She’s loving your man in your own damn bed
You better call for the doctor, mama,
try to investigate your head
So you got to be wise, keep your mouth shut,
don’t advertise your man

Piano break…

Women be wise, keep your mouth shut,
don’t advertise your man, dont’be a fool…
Don’t sit around, girl,
telling all your secrets,
telling all those good things he really can do
If you talk about your baby,
you tell me he’s so fine
Lord honey,
I just might sneek up and try to make him mine
Women be wise,
keep your mouth shut,
don’t advertise your man

Don’t be no fool,
don’t advertise your man (baby don’t do it)

The man I’m lovin’
Don’t worry ‘bout me runnin’ around
You won’t ever find my baby
Hustlin’ after me all over town
He don’t have to shout
He don’t even have to call
Knows I’m comin’ home
Even if I got to crawl
He’ll get me when he wants me
He’s the finest lovin’ man around

When he gets up in the morning
Or when he comes home late at night
You know the man’s always hungry
Knows I’m gonna cook it up just right
He don’t ever hurry
He just takes his time
Just a little taste is all it takes to make him mine
He’ll get it when he wants it
He’s the finest lovin’ man around

Some women they act just
Like their men will never come to no good
You know they are always on the cheat
And never treat him like a good woman should
You want him to do you right
Honey, that ain’t the way
You got to love him all night
You do just what he say
And you get just what you give out
That’s the only way to gain his faith

[solo]

Now me and my baby
We always know just what we’re puttin’ down
And we know we’ll be together
Til the day when something better comes around
Til that day comes
You won’t hear me complaining
I’ll take him as like he is
Cause you know I can’t change him
I’ll love him best I can
He’s the finest lovin’ man around