LeahLu

You’ve all been there with me right? You start eating right, exercising, ‘behaving yourself’ in other words, and you lose a few pounds. Now you’re all inspired by what you see on the scale and you ‘behave yourself’ some more. A week or two down the road, you get busy and tired and you go back to doing the easy thing and basically ‘not behaving yourself’. I have officially gone back to the easy thing and lost my focus. I had my son 2 years ago and have stayed the same obese weight since then. Recently my Memaw had a talk with me and expressed her fears about my health and my ability to keep up with my son, she scared and inspired me to ‘behave myself’. I had made some small changes in my life and fairly quickly I had reached a weight I had not seen since I met the Mr.

Now I’m back to ‘misbehaving’ and it’s killing me. I know what I should be doing and eating, but I just can’t seem to ‘behave’. I play mind games with myself about working out; I’ll tell myself, “I’ll just play with Jr. until 7 then go to the gym.” Next thing I know, it’s 10 and I’m heading off to bed. I know I should be eating 5 times a day but I never bring enough snacks to work to accomplish this.

Maybe I need a babysitter for myself. Someone to follow me around and make sure I have everything I need and that I stick to my schedule. Wait, isn’t that an assistant? I wonder if I can find someone who’ll take $20 a week as salary?