Lee1973

I really need to get my own computer. I have been allowed to use the computer of the person who’s house I sit for, but it only has 54 megabites and doesn’t comprehend all the new flash players out. My goal is to get a job that is mentall and physically righ for me and buy my own computer, make even more money, eventually buy my own house, and feed myself better. Right now, I’m just a homeless housesitter, living in other peoples homes. Life will get better.

I’m a failure at most things in my life. I could blame it on bieng Aspergers and my ADHD, but I won’t. I can’t and would never use drugs or alcahol. I’m allergic to most medication. I’ve lost my kids to an abusive spouse. I have allowed people to control and manipulate me since I was a tiny young girl. I’m finally stopped doing that. I’m just different. It makes me sad that no one can accept me for who and what I am. I have never committed any crime. My worst flaw is that I am extremely point blank honest. I can not tell a lie. I’m Wiccan. This has helped me learn about herbal remedies, like catuaba bark tea which promotes mental healing by activating neurons, helps keep you calm, helps with your nervous system, also stimulates libido. I don’t really need the last, but the others are great. I like echinea and mint for my allergies and for my stomach problems. I just prefer easy going herbal remedies. I don’t like narcotics at all. I feel sorry for people who were foolish enough to get stuck on drugs and alcahol.
I still need to learn to deal with the losses I have been handed. I ask myself everyday, what could I have done to prevent it. I have very few friends, and they don’t have any time for me right now, most of them are to far away. I just need a job that is right for me mentally and physically, and then maybe, I can accept myself more. I’m learning that finding that job isn’t easy. I seem to do well as a housesitter though. It has gotten me a place to stay for free. Now I need something that will keep me well fed too. I’m on my way to accepting myself I guess.

I have a job taking care of someone’s home to have a place to live. Who couldn’t love living in someone’s home for free? However, I want a job in California working with computers or driving a car. I’ve been looking, but can’t seem to get a job doing anything. If it wasn’t for the houssitting job I would be completely homeless.