Ack! I totally chickened out. Round two is next weekend. I really wish there was some way of knowing for sure what he would say, but of course I can never tell. On one hand, we talk every day and sleep together all the time (no sex or making out, just a whole lot of cuddling). But on the other, he has told me a few times I’m like a sister to him. But he has sisters. He does not spoon with them. Or get all weird when they go on dates. ARG! Okay, something must be done. Next weekend…so I can do it in person.
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2. Skydive
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3. get out of debt
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4. Ride a mechanical bull
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5. Learn more french
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6. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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7. stop biting my nails
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8. write a book
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9. adopt a child
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10. go to India
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11. go to europe
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12. learn to ski
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13. Run the NYC Marathon
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14. learn how to massage
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15. find a job that makes me happy
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16. go to Africa
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17. go skinny dipping
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18. Beat my depression
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19. go to the PBR World Finals
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20. learn to read music
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21. play the piano again
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22. tell him how i feel
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23. Learn to surf
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26. learn to bake bread
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27. get married
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28. become a surrogate mother for a gay couple.
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29. increase my flexibility
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30. speak out about my rape
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33. Learn Spanish
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Okay….so the time has finally come. It’s gotten ridiculous. I am going to see hi mnext weekend and I will talk to him about it. Because I can’t move on till I get this out of the way. No matter what the outcome, it’s got to be better than all the wondering.
Okay, sorry it took so long to write anything more detailed. I am in Denver now, in my new apartment. I live sort of by Washington Park, which is a fun neighborhood so far. Everyone is really friendly, but not in a creepy nosey way. There’s plenty to do, it’s easy to find my way around the city (even when I decide to leave my car and take mass transit), the weather is fantastic and the dating scene is WAY more to my taste out here than it was in New York. It’s only been a couple of weeks, and I already love it.
