I was so close last night. My day had far too much drama in it for my comfort level and I was out for drinks with friends and wanted a cigarette SO BAD. But was with friends who don’t smoke… so I thought and thought about sneaking out and bumming one from the back patio… but they’d smell it on me instantly when I came back so instead I told my pal next to me that I really wanted on and she distracted me from the idea. New necessity. I need a safety plan. hah. I was told this by a couple people and just kind of laughed at it.. but seriously.. the couple times I’ve REALLY WANTED TO SMOKE have been when i was upset over something and wanted a few of my brain cells occupied by the hand to mouth, inhale exhale motion. And I want not to have to rely on my friends to keep me in check.
LetMeStand's Life List
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1. Quit Smoking
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2. Do my morning pages every morning
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3. Finish unpacking
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4. Get up earlier to make the most of the day, and my life
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5. Run
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6. Learn Italian
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7. Learn to play guitar
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8. Have better posture
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9. Live in Italy
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10. Read more, see more movies, smell more flowers, take more walks, float in the water more, listen to more music, experience beauty and sensuality.
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11. identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money)
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12. Get away- Go somewhere, just by myself for a day, or two or three
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13. Do 43 things i've never done before!
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14. Figure out how to keep dancing
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15. Be comfortable doing what's uncomfortable
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16. Draw more, write more, paint more, dance more, sing more, take more photographs, create.
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17. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
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18. create an altered book
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I had approximately four cigarettes last night :-O
Which in itself doesn’t bother me… because that’s quite a difference from the half pack to full pack a day I’ve been doing before this previous week… but still. I really need a huge break in order to full get it out of my system and my lifestyle. SO. Little set back… but it’s ok. Back on the wagon
I’m actually pretty proud at how seamless this seems to have been so far… a couple of “I want a cigarette” moments… but easily eluded. Although I think coffee makes me far more jittery now than it used to. And honestly… the most difficult thing… is not being able to kill a few idle minutes of idle hands and idle brain cells sporadically throughout the day…
I’m waiting at least two weeks before checking this off as done… or should I wait a month?
And ps! I just noticed that my “personal challenge” to quit by November 1st has been listed as failed, and I’m slightly offended. I did not fail. I have not smoked since then… I just didn’t sign online immediately and click the “I did this” button. :-( Give me some grace time here 43things server!
