I'm doing 43 things
I live fleeting moments of contentness. Pure true moments. Usually when the sun sets. Or when I am listening to right music in the right moment. But otherwise, my mind is in a constant state of search. Wanting more, not knowing what I want. Wanting what I think you want I want. Mostly wanting to be content. The irony sickens me. I am not content because I am wanting to be content. I know I am not alone, and as I get older it becomes a little easier. I worry that I am trying to fill a bottomless void. Sometimes I can see it and avoid the sadness or wanting. I don’t suffer from depression. But I do suffer. Like you do too I am sure. When is it enough. When do you say “now, now I have all I need, all I want.” I wonder if I would just die if I couldn’t want anymore. Thanks for listening.
Life32's Life List
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1. give my son the full experience of life
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2. own a house on the ocean
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3. be content
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4. take pictures all the time
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5. know that my husband knows how much i love him
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6. Be recognized for my art internationally
1 entry . 1 cheer1 person -
7. Build an Eco-Friendly Self-sustainable home
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8. Own a cabin
2 cheers15 people -
9. Body Build
16 people -
10. learn to play guitar
1 cheer4,291 people -
11. start a magazine
2 entries . 3 cheers321 people -
12. hold a monkey
1 cheer103 people -
13. go to an international soccer game
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14. experience life in a foriegn country
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15. learn another language
1 cheer3,733 people -
16. run a marathon
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17. swim with dolphins
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18. renew my wedding vows
1 cheer90 people -
19. volunteer for a very worthy cause
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20. live in Paris
824 people -
21. Get my swimming badges
1 person -
22. eat at a world renowned restaurant
1 person -
23. see the seven wonders
1 cheer23 people -
24. see the northern lights in the north
1 person -
25. scuba dive
1 cheer2,192 people -
26. go on safari
1 cheer203 people -
27. see the running of the bulls
11 people -
28. go whale watching via kayak
1 person -
29. Learn to shoot a gun
440 people -
30. go to the oscars
92 people -
31. see the birth of a baby animal not in captivity
1 person -
32. tango
1 cheer102 people -
33. go to a fashion show in Milan
2 people -
34. go to the carnival in Italy
1 person -
35. Ride a horse on the beach
234 people -
36. learn more about my parents
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37. Own a designer suit
2 people -
38. sleep outside
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39. Ride on a Harley
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40. be independantly wealthy
14 people -
41. see my mother travel
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42. do good deeds for strangers
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43. create small pieces of art, and leave them for people to find
3 entries . 4 cheers488 people
So now I am a stay at home mom, just moved my family across canada and am seriously, slowly working on starting up. I don’t want to send false hope… it is not easy… there are good days and bad, but I am still working towards the goal. I vow this year will be the best of my life. Follow your dreams.
I am a graphic designer with a serious magazine obsession. This magazine obsession is contradicted by my innate detest of all things mass produced that contribute to the pile of waste in on this planet. I plan on doing an eco friendly mag. the topic I am not sharing right now but at least i have the skills to actually design the whole thing cover to cover. Sounds good, so why haven’t I started? I am a dreamer by nature; I inherit that from my dad. I want to be a doer now. Not tomorrow, wish me luck. I just quit my job and am starting my own company… YIKEs and Yeah!
