I am not sure about this goal anymore: the age is catching up and at 37 I’ve only a few years left of fertility.
But I do have a child now: a little girl of 13 months, my joy and my true love. I could not be asking for a cuddlier, sweeter, happier little child.
I have understood that it’s not the quantity that gives happiness, but the quality. And my baby is making me the happiest woman on earth.
This is not stopping me to try for another, though!!!
Jun 02, 2010, 05:57AM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
I have been hiding my body for the last 15 years: gradually, but inexorably, I have seen my silhouette deforming under layers of fat. And although I wanted to slim down, I just could not: I would pounce on food like some famished animal, and eat so quickly I would not even realize that I was over-eating. And the pounds piled up. And the fatter I became, the more I ate. I was stuck in this loop from hell.
Then, a month ago, the revelation. I wasn’t a greedy disgusting fat person, I was (am) someone dealing with serious past traumas, and my binge eating is only a way of coping with my issues.
I am now getting help, to both learn how to accept and leave the trauma behind and to learn how to control my eating disorder.
I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel, I finally start to believe that I can slim down to 130 pounds: it is not anymore the impossible dream of a obese woman, it’s now an achievable goal.
Jun 02, 2010, 05:42AM PDT | 0 comments
I feel so much better now that I drink more than 2 liters of water a day. I feel less tired, I eat less, my skin looks great, my hair are shinier, I can concentrate for longer on my tasks… definitely the single most intelligent thing I have ever done!
Jan 03, 2007, 08:19PM PST | 4 cheers | 2 comments