LilNimby

I figure I can shoot for the moon and hope to get a 700 or a 750 on the GMAT. Be able to apply for most schools and get in. I can study my brains on and make sure I know every test taking strategy that there is to know…but is that what I really want?

What I really care about is having a more advanced educations. What I care about is increasing my business skills so I can get in a position where I can truly help “people”—rather than my “pride” or my “bottom line”. What I care about is doing my best…not temporarily remembering a few things just long enough to get this test out of my way. I want to comprehend and build true skills. I don’t want to just be another name, another person who crammed for the test. I want to build myself to be a better self.

No arbitrary measure will do that. I can’t set a goal as to “get a certain score” and get what I want. I can say I want to study consistently to enable me to do the best I can and get what I’m searching for.

Now what is consistently? Every Tuesday & Thursday evening and Saturday afternoon till the test. Put my nose to the books and push through this next phase of life. But not to “get through” it or to survive it. But to have it as a true experience that matters and that I can build my future off of.

I love my job I have. I would have never saw myself doing this, but I really do love it. I know what I want to be doing with my life now.

My advise to others:
Search high and low.
It’s could be a hard, hard road if you’re not willing to relocate.
Unless you must have the job, don’t be afraid to say no to a job offer if it doesn’t feel quite right “(I don’t mean the difficult feeling of impeding change, but that of the “this could be it, in a year and some getting use to it” feeling.

It is the hardest thing the world. With my school schedule, it makes it impossible to be consistent. I always have good intentions to get to bed early…so I can wake up early…but I always have to get something done that night so I can hand it in first thing in the morning. I just can’t juggle it all to make it work. I can do it a few mornings a week, but I can’t do it every morning like I want to.