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LilaKia




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LilaKia's Life List

  2. 1. water fast for 40 days
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  3. 2. create blog / blog regularly
    		7 people
  4. 3. bottle my favorite beverages
    		1 person
  5. 4. get a passport
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  6. 5. Save some money for a trip
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  7. 6. have my work published
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  8. 7. get a six pack of beer
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  9. 8. Scream really loud without worrying about how loud I'm screaming or who's around
    		14 people
  10. 9. conduct record breaking studies
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  11. 10. keep a gratitude journal
    		162 people
  12. 11. hike the AT
    		145 people
  13. 12. drink a gallon of water a day
    		53 people
  14. 13. learn embroidery
    		24 people
  15. 14. get my license
    		1,308 people
  16. 15. live in an RV
    		16 people
  17. 16. Take a road trip across the USA
    		281 people
  18. 17. find a pen pal
    		554 people
  19. 18. learn to tie all those fancy Navy knots
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  20. 19. become a beekeeper
    		44 people
  21. 20. make a zine
    		244 people
  22. 21. make handmade gifts for friends
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  23. 22. post artwork that I find interesting
    1 entry . 1 cheer     		3 people
  24. 23. walk on hot coals
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  25. 24. run 10 miles without stopping
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  26. 25. Make an out of tune beat up guitar sound like music
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  27. 26. Build a soundproof box
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  28. 27. Find a decent synthesizer
    		1 person
  29. 28. Paint living murals
    		1 person
  30. 29. Learn to pick locks
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  31. 30. Apprentice in sword making
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  32. 31. Find a working film projector
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  33. 32. make my own clothes
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  34. 33. grow my hair long
    		3,514 people
  35. 34. learn parkour
    		329 people
  36. 35. gain tolerance to the cold by taking cold showers, ice baths , polar swimming and running barefoot in the snow
    		1 person
  37. 36. stop binge-eating
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  38. 37. design lingerie
    		15 people
  39. 38. minimize my material possessions
    		155 people
  40. 39. Finish what I start
    		3,838 people
  41. 40. travel round the world
    		76 people
  42. 41. knit a sweater
    		624 people
  43. 42. take 365 days of self portraits
    1 entry     		101 people
  44. 43. Take apart and rebuild random electric junk
    2 cheers     		1 person
Recent entries
post artwork that I find interesting
Untitled 3 weeks ago

the drunkeness of noah

Oct 31, 12:43AM PDT | 0 comments


stop binge-eating
Untitled 1 month ago

Does anyone here tend to binge around the full moon or during PMS? This keeps happening to me and I don’t know how to avoid it. This entry might be the first time that I’ve delayed giving into it. I drank huge amounts of water and tea, had 3 apples and spicy lemonade and called a helpline to see if I could talk to someone who’d give me some advice. They directed me to overeaters anonymous and not much help there, I ended up tripping on the 12 steps, falling all the way out of there. So, after searching online for ways to curb it, looking up various tricks to get away, I decided after inhaling some cedarwood to join this thread to relieve some of the pain of this urgent compulsion. Usually, I just give in, but it feels so agonizing to keep returning to this same cycle.

If I could only understand the reasons for wanting to binge around this time, maybe I could remedy it. Herbs, healthy food and excercize seem like logical solutions, but they don’t help with the root of the problem. Right around the time of my period I start to wonder if I’m pregnant and feel very bloated and ashamed of my appearance and I think that triggers me to eat insane quantities, to deaden feelings, resolve fears of deficiency and avoid responsibility when I feel thrown off by circumstances when trying to please others or avoid making anyone angry.

I’ve read so many books on emotional eating, looking at it from the standpoint of cognitive therapy, spirituality, mindfulness, social responsibility, etc., but none of it sticks because I get thrown off so easily by encounters that I lack the discipline to keep with it.

Well, I feel a little better after ranting about this and less focused on food. Maybe finding my own personal way of resolving this would help more than any book for now. I feel way too on edge in this situation to follow any program and I can only look to what exists in the present moment from my own biased perspective and gather what I can from that. Maybe when this settles down a bit, I’ll have a better time applying what I learn from others. Sadness and overwhelming obligations and exciting leaps into unknown worlds make me want to hide away in food. I think I just need to make art.

Oct 07, 02:38PM PDT | 3 comments


take 365 days of self portraits
Untitled 2 months ago

Lost my camera. So I might draw some self portraits until I can find another one. The way self portraits reflect what goes on internally gives depth to vanity. . . Me me me!

Sep 17, 10:00PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments



 

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keep in better touch with friends & family be super fit play sims free online Live in another country be a better lover get another tattoo take calculus JORJIA wants to move out Make a movie Watch all episodes of "Futurama" ever made Be confident watch the simpsons Learn how to play songs backwards to find subliminal messages looking4balance wants to stop drinking learn photoshop study wicca and witchcraft get enough sleep go to grad school travel the world get better at singing make my own clothes Read my Bible more go on a zero gravity flight become a singer Get a new Computer watch Grey's Anatomy Learn how to grind dance for free and fast.
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