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I already read more than most kids my age, but I still feel as if I never read or finish the books I start. But from now on I will really try to set aside more time for reading.

I think I might be on the right way now. I’m trying.

I did it a few days ago and it looks pretty cool. It didn’t hurt that much at all. It’s done very quickly!

Yesterday I bought a paper version of the Qur’an (I’ve been reading it online before). It’s in Swedish, but unfortunately it’s not modern Swedish, so I just hope that it won’t be too hard. If this is the most updated Swedish translation available, they need a new one. The Norwegian one is a lot better, but it was too expensive for me. Anyway, physically owning the book makes it easier to read a little here and there.

Just think about it – life is so much nicer when you love the one person whom you have no choice but to hang around until it ends.

I’m currently searching high and low for the right path. I was raised a Jehovah’s Witness, and I’m glad and quite proud that I managed to escape from that controlling group. For me they are the definition of a lot of things that are wrong with organized religion today. But I still want to believe in something!

I have a few “requirements” for my religion, though.

1. It must not be organized in the way that you are required to join any organization or be registered anywhere to be considered a member/believer/whatever.

2. It must give men and women equal rights, be tolerating of homosexuality and not have a bunch of strict rules that do little more than distract from its true purpose.

3. It must be something I’m able to believe in fully, i.e. not too crazy, unlikely or fable-like.

4. It must not contradict modern science and the like.

I’m open to anything (as I know most religions can be interpreted into working with my conditions). I’ve decided to toss aside all my prejudices. I want to read the holy scriptures of the world, since I believe that anything that truly comes from God to us should speak to my heart and be easy enough to understand (or else the purpose of the text is defeated, right?). Currently I have started with the Qur’an. I think this is where one really should search, not just by reading descriptions of different people’s beliefs.
I wonder if anyone takes the same approach as me?

Anyway, I wish all who is on this mission good luck.

The information one gets about Islam here and there all seems very confusing, and I want to learn about it right from the source.

It’s partially pure interest and partially because of my “Find a Religion” goal.
I’ve been raised with an angry Bible being showed down my throat, and while I have belief in it, it also confuses me. Now I’m open to look into other things as well. I want to give the Qur’an a shot, and if it’s the word of God it shouldn’t be too hard for me (or anyone) to understand, that’s what I think. So far I’ve gotten halfway through and I’m pleasantly surprised. I never understood what it was about before, and it’s hard to explain, but quite early on in my reading I just suddenly “got it”, I understood something I hadn’t known before.

I told my Chinese teacher about my experience reading the Qur’an and she seemed to understand. She said that God leads us in the right direction, and it did make me think. I’m not making any decision until I’ve looked elsewhere too, though.

I did it, and for now, I have the “not worth it” attitude to this.

I’ve started to wear skirts every day except when I really don’t have any clean ones or something similar. I feel more confident and well-dressed in a skirt, and I feel like I generally look better now! Definitely worth doing.

This is my secret dream that I never seem to remember to set aside any money for.

I have no idea how to approach this task, but I suspect writing her love letters that I’ll never give her isn’t the best strategy.

The hardest thing (about getting over a crush in general) is to break the stupid illusion that some day she will realize how things should be and return these feelings, don’t you think? Because we like to hold onto it.

Yes, I’m young, but I meet the requirements for this program I’ve been looking at, both in age and education. It looks very nice, so my plan is to move to China next July. I actually think the hardest thing will be not to have all my friends around me anymore, but I know I will make new ones.

We are getting a kitten when my mom’s boss’s cat has kittens. Which will hopefully happen soon as she’s gotten herself a boyfriend =) The cat I mean. Not my mom’s boss.

trudge; v

1. To walk wearily with heavy, slow steps.

There are many English words I don’t know.