Lizogical

Since I split from my boyfriend of four years, a year 1/2 ago, I have gone for idiot after idiot! The problem is that they don’t come with a tag or a sign. Wish they did, because seriously they all seem like nice guy but nahh ahhh nope, they have all turned out to be idiots..

I like to think that I’m pretty outgoing and interesting in my views. I like being chirpy, but also can be quite emotional and fall easily – but I always get up!

I think sometimes I have the tendancy to try and make myself appear ‘better’ by behaving less like me – but the more consciously I think of my actions, the more unhappy I feel and less sure of myself.

Tonight Im going out, where I know that certain people who have the potential to be idiots really, involving a sittuation thats happening right now – but I’m not going to let them! I’m going to be strong and put them to the back of my mind and have fun!

I want to be more care-free. This is all related to me thinking too much too – but I also care too much and it upsets me. I liked this guy and I cared to much and he just starts seeing someone else behind my back when I thought we had a thing going. Also I’ve been insulted so much this week by a stupid friend of a friend who is constantly popping pills and I shouldn’t care, because who is he to me? He doesn’t even really know me and I don’t care to know him – not with the aittitude and persoanlity defects that he clearly has – so why should I care. I don’t want to!

Care LESS, that what I’m thinking :)