LonelyGurl

Well.. i have been trying to achieve this goal for a while, because i have a lot of sh** going on in my life where i have been called certain things like bitch, geek, bookworm, weirdo, loser, emo, show off… and i know it may sound like i’m a little over sensitve but i have always been one to please so yeah… And plus like everyone in my classes are what i like to call ‘pretties’(i call them that because i don’t want to call them names and sink down to their level but by calling them populars i am giving them power so yeah…) and they all think i am preatty bad things. So that’s why i need to not worry about what others think about me. I have got to learn that it doesn’t matter what others think about me it’s what i think of myself. must. remember. that. must…

I have a journal, except i have gotten out of writing in it because i am starting to write poetry. I have started about a million journals and diares in the past but i always end up giving up on them about half way through. Sometimes not even that far. Soooooooooooo… I am going to try to write in it regularly.

Lately i have been writing in it before i go to bed. That’s usually when i think about crap and feel tons of emotions. It feels so good to get it off my chest and not worry about it all night before i fall asleep.

Anyway i will keep updating with my progress.. Wish me well!

I hate my friends. Really i do. i have two best friends. One of them is preatty good but then the other i don’t like. She is always ditching me with my other friend to the point where i want to cry. Then she says she feels like we walk all over her when we ditch her wich is rarely. Plus she thinks i am anoying and can sometimes be a bitch. yep. i. hate. my. friends. So if anyone wants to be my friend then tell me. i will be very happy.