Lorafolley

It’s my life….even though You made me. It’s my life….even though You can wipe me from existence in a second. It’s my life…..even though You have the best plan for me. I am in control….it’s frightening to give up all that you are. And to centralize all that you are….including your purpose.

That is what is keeping me from God. I am working on it.

I grew up, as like most of the human population, with the notion that I would never get divorced. But I am. He just doesn’t love me, he can’t even tell me so. His response is “no answer.” I still love him, I just cannnot bring myself to be in something that stabs me every day. Yup, I asked God to forgive me. And I know He hates this, but He loves me more than he hates divorce.

I have been in pain for awhile…....I just want to face all of this chaos in the face, put an end to it, then face that type of pain, and then heal. But destroying something you put your soul into is something I have never done before. Hoever, no other alternative available.