LostThoughts

im proud to say that i have had one whole week without eating anytype of meat product or used anything that has any type of animal things:P lol:D

for me its kinda hard to mkae my dad proud…. i get the best grades from all my brothers, i do all this community help, i join sports, clubs, ect and accomplish mayn goals yet he never seems proud of me… it almost seems that he is most proud of my youger brother than me just bcause he is more like him…. im just happy that i have a greeat mother that loves me a lot and is proud of me for everything i do=)

Bah just got my grades today an im so mad!I got 3 A’s and 3 B’s bah im so mad!!! I tried so hard to get good grades this semester and i dont know what to do know!!! Grr I lost my space in Top Ten from #2 to #18 BAH!!! How could this happen did I mention the some of the people are taking summer school to get a higher GPA AHHHHH!!! that means ill be in a much lower rank ahh i shouldnt have applied for the stupid college summer program im not even getting school credits aww im just so mad right now!!!here is what i got
History: B =3
AVID= A= 4
English Honors 10= A =5
Honors Chemistry=A =5
AP Spanish= B= 4
Pre Cal. = B= 3

24/6= 4.0+4.3333=8.3333/2=4.154

GAH SO MADD RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just hate being shy… though it sometimes does have its positive aspects to it. It gives me more time to think and just makes it easier to cause less probelsm( drama) hehe:P. But I just hate that im missing out in many things in my high school years. There are so many things that i want to do but because im shy im not doing them. This year so far ive started to step out of my shell and joined clubs, sports and joined some summer programs. I hope that i will be able to overcome shyness to expereience the high school life:).It just that its so hard to let go of something Im use to, and to let it go it feels so uncomfortable. I actually am i very talkative person:P , but it just takes some time to settle and be able to get comfortable to be able to step up out of the shell.There are just so many reasons why i am shy and i just want to show them, yet i feel im not oging to be accpeted if i ever do decide to let go…I dont want to be shy i want to show my true inner self because i got so many things to say:P

its kinda hard for me to write something that i want to ride i usually do better with things people tell me to write about like a paper or something i could nver put what i have in my mind because its complicated … ive done this so far since yesterday and i hope im able to continue it for more time because i have A LOT of things that people dont know aobut me
thats why im doing it in those live journal things:P

lol its scary to be in one i was scared even at disneyland lol and there were little kids going on them:P

lol its scary to be in one i was scared even at disneyland lol and there were little kids going on them:P

lol i want to do this it sounds fun:P

i posted one already:P

i use to have problems sleeping like i would be so stressed out with things that i wouldnt be able to go to sleep so then i jsut started to listen to classical music ALL day and it helped me it made my day go much more smoother and at night i would forget about all the things and be able to sleep good:) hope this works

I just realized a couple of weeks ago, I need to be valedictorian. I am not doing it to have the honor of going up to give the speech in front of the hundreds of graduating seniors but I am doing it because I am competitive. All my life I have tried so hard to get good grades, to be able to see my name in a certificate, to be able to have people say, “Wow you are really smart”, and I will just give them a smile. But know that I have entered high school, I’ve tired to get the best grades I can and I have. And to my astonishment I am #2 in my sophomore class, and that just made me so mad! The #1 person was an idiotic football player who would mess around in class, copy everyone homework, cheat in test, and just be a complete nuisance. What even made me madder is that everyone was encouraging him in class, right in my face. Telling him, “Oh definitely you are going to be #1”. Other things that even made me more frustrated is that in class we were talking about having this honor then the teacher just mentions his name and start naming everyone in Top Ten and you know who did they forgot? ME! That just broke my heart because they forgot my name. I WAS #2! NEXT TO #1! HOW HARD IS IT TO REMEMBER EVERYONE BELOW ME AND NOT ME AND SAY THAT’S ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WILL HAVE A CHANCE TO BE VALEDICTORIAN! I have spent this year to get my GPA high enough only to see me get rejected and not be remembered?

This year I decided to get into tennis because it looks like an awsome sport to play during higschool yet even thought it was my first year i made it to varsity because there wasnt enough people to make a jv team so they had to put me there. and i lost EVERY single match i played in doubles and i felt as if i let the team down. Now i want to get better and be able to go to the finals and win for the first time and make the coach proud

photoshop is hard even if i use a tutorial i never get good colors or know how to mix the colors yet its addicting

hehe this is what i really want since these couple of years my parents income has been really low and im not sure ill be albe to go to a good school like a UC

getting a 4.0 or higher will just put you in a lot more stress than you are right now trying to maintain it and knowing what you can do. trust me. this semester(since last year i got a 4.2 :D) i felt sad just seeing a “B” in one of my class(even though it was an AP class counts as a 4 in gpa scale) and just made me want to give up and now that this quarted i got straight B i just dont know what to do

so close to this . so far in my sophmore year in first semester i have a 4.3 and next year im planning with the 5 AP classes im taking to get me closer to here