Lostpurpose

When I was much younger I acheived a green belt 2nd degree in Guakido Style karate. I still love martial arts and I have a plan! My lover and I are going to both get into the martial artsof our choice and then have weekly matchups. ‘MY KUNG FU IS STRONGER’ style. ^^ Oh the joy.

I moved to the city last month and I still haven’t gotten up enough courage to go out on my own. I get out onto the street from downtown and I’m overwhelmed with the sheer press of people. My hands sweat and shake – I have trouble talking – It’s ridiculous! I’ve been applying for jobs and getting no callbacks – and I know it’s because of the way I appear (Shaking, sweaty, wide-eyed, and generally looking like an escaped convict.) I just want to be able to rid myself of this panic and go on with my life!

I’m going out tommorow. Maybe I’ll pretend I’m a superhero.