I'm doing 2 things
Dear Ana,
9 months ago
I’m afraid that I’ll never be good enough.
I can’t go out with friends without worrying about where we’ll go, if we’ll eat, what I’ll do about it.
I’M PARANOID.
I’m afraid that overcoming anorexia will cause me to gain tons of weight back.
I don’t want that.
I want my tiny frame and size 0 jeans… forever.
But I want to be able to EAT.
Is that too much to ask for?
It really hurts to see my 99 lb. classmate be able to eat whatever she wants because of a certain medication she’s on, when I can’t even get to 105 lbs. by STARVING myself.
WHEN WILL IT END??
Love, Kelly.
