I'm doing 41 things
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i am falling as i write this. <3 <3 <3
Lunacera's Life List
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1. Fall in love
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2. meditate daily
1 entry . 3 cheers3,983 people -
3. improve my Spanish
2 entries . 2 cheers1,044 people -
4. surround myself with beauty
1 cheer38 people -
5. find my passion
1 entry1,869 people -
6. practice my ukulele daily!! (so I can get better)
4 entries . 5 cheers1 person -
7. start a new painting
1 entry6 people -
8. lose 5 pounds
2 entries1,155 people -
9. live healthy
2 entries . 6 cheers168 people -
10. learn how to silk screen
2 entries . 5 cheers23 people -
11. be more positive
3 entries . 2 cheers2,134 people -
12. Do some more bookbinding projects
1 entry . 6 cheers5 people -
13. write a book of short stories
1 entry . 3 cheers103 people -
14. join a halau
1 entry . 2 cheers1 person -
15. write more poems
3 entries146 people -
16. sell my crafts
2 entries . 2 cheers86 people -
17. take african dance classes
1 entry . 3 cheers21 people -
18. learn to dance samba
1 entry . 1 cheer11 people -
19. Learn to Salsa
1 entry . 3 cheers1,348 people -
20. finish reading all the books I own
1 entry . 1 cheer176 people -
21. design my own tattoo
2 entries . 2 cheers4,487 people -
22. Stop caring what other people think of me
2 entries . 2 cheers3,976 people -
23. learn to sew, and sew well
1 entry . 1 cheer49 people -
24. manage my money more successfully
1 entry40 people -
25. watch all the movies on my movies list
1 cheer19 people -
26. Learn Japanese
1 entry9,751 people -
27. Learn a martial art
1 entry1,453 people -
28. go on a road trip with no predetermined destination
1 entry18,610 people -
29. Finish what I start
2 entries3,845 people -
30. Give more gifts for no reason
3 cheers20 people -
31. Develop lasting organizational skills
1 entry . 3 cheers6 people -
32. Learn to surf
7,375 people -
33. start a band
1 entry . 2 cheers1,881 people -
34. travel to Japan
1 entry736 people -
35. travel to South East Asia
2 cheers7 people -
36. travel to South America
1 entry . 3 cheers363 people -
37. Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.
2 entries . 1 cheer743 people -
38. learn how to mix music electronically
1 entry . 1 cheer12 people -
39. design my own website
261 people -
40. Improve my public speaking
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41. Get my Master's Degree
1 cheer1,077 people
How I did it
It made me
optimistic 
How I did it: I can't say there was any one particular event or activity that helped to push me through the darkness of depression. Some days I felt like I was wading in turbulent dark waters, and there was no light for me to reach towards. In short, depression that lasts for months can be so difficult to deal with.I finally committed to seeing a therapist on a regular basis, and this helped immensely. For one hour a day, I could "dump" on someone who … Read how I did it…
It made me
Happy!
How I did it: I look forward to going to work the next day bright eyed and bushy tailed. I make a point to go in early and sleep early. Sleep is the BEST way I can take care of myself. Well, I ain't 23 anymore, ya know? Read how I did it…
It made me
Satisfied
How I did it: This painting began as a whirlwind task because I had not picked up oils in years. I found an inspiring picture and chipped away at it full force for the first two weeks. After the first two weeks, I lost interest and kept the painting in the back of my mind. I did NOT put it away though. I purposely cleared my desk and left the painting out so that I could not ignore it. This painting took me about two months to complete. After the initi… Read how I did it…
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What I decided to do
4 months ago
1. Went to a therapist
2. Considered pharmaceuticals
3. joined a gym
4. started eating a little better
5. I am less depressed but feel like I still need some kind of direction. I am okay with my career and I feel “in the moment” when I am there, but I still feel like something is missing. What is it? I don’t want to live and die and wonder what it was all for. I want to feel like I am truly in sync and in touch with life. Maybe it’s my hormones? I don’t know but I miss life. I want passion again.
Bordeom
4 months ago
will suck the life out of a person. And so will working at a 9-5 you don’t really love. It’s important to work and I do think it’s good for the soul, but I also know that my 9-5 is not my life’s work. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy it sometimes and I dedicate much of my life to what I do during the day. But at the end of the day there is this whisper in my head that tells me I coulda, shoulda, woulda pursued my art if I wasn’t so afraid. It’s silly but I feel that I’m too old to start all over again. I teach and that is that. But I also think that if I don’t at least try to develop my art, then I will never know.
People tell me all the time that I can do both. But really I want to become more skilled and prolific is all. I feel I am mediocre at everything I do. Lately it’s been getting to me. I want to be passionate about something, anything, everything. This “boredom” or depression or whatever it is I’m experiencing is really getting to me.
