I'm doing 13 things
i am trying moderation moderation!
14 months ago
i don’t want to erase drinking! I’m going to try and control it!
MKusanagi's Life List
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1. quit smoking
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2. Quit drinking
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3. workout with my friend every monday and wednesday
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4. do 100 pushups challenge
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5. run 2 miles a day for a month
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6. be extremely disciplined without burning out
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7. sleep from 10pm till 6am
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8. be a calm person
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9. be quiet
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10. write good things about myself every day for a month
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11. live consciously
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12. forgive myself of my sins
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13. drink in moderation
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Recent entries
Why drink?
15 months ago
Why drink? What does it give me that I cannot get living sober? A night out drinking with friends may be fun. But I sacrifice great things for this one night of “good times”. I sacrifice control of myself. I am a bipolar drunk. And I lose control over my actions either making a fool of myself, getting violent, making bad mistakes. I can still have fun out with friends without alcohol in my blood stream and I will feel better about it the next day. No hangover and no guilt. Guilt is all I feel when I drink. Not drinking is a challenge. I must find other ways. Instead of a beer a non-alcoholic beer. Instead of a daiquiri, a virgin daiquiri. And all this after just turning 21. But I know my problem. Once I drink I feel miserable till I drink more. Whether or not I give in I still feel miserable. Thanks to my drinking habits of last year I can drink comfortably no longer. But I should not feel loss. I should feel fine without it. No change.
