Mac911

Im in college now and theres no room for procrastination…
well there shouldnt be, yet, there is
Dx im always putting everythin off
i have trouble focusin and in the end
i just wound up stressing out cuz i cant get organized enough
i think i should start by doinig that though
gettin organized ryt?
yea well i always shut down when i have to do somethin dat ididnt choose to do, say clean or a difficult assignment =|
haha well gud luck to me and everyone out there who
does not enjoy procrastinatin n wants to quit lol
Xb
ive gotta say…if it were a profession haha id b quite rich xD

i feel like this is a childish problem of mine that nobody understands, especially my friends =|
the moment i try to tell them how i feel about myself
they immediately contradict me but since im so stubborn
i persist on it and they get really annoyed.
i really dont believe them when they compliment me
do i look bad and theyre just trying to cover it up?
do they pity me? is this feeling really that bad?
idnt get how they dnt understand this
its just ugh!!
wth is up wid ppl feeling like theyre pretty?!
im soo jealous! especially when theyre not n they think theyre the fuken hot shit ugh it makes me feel like trash
how come THEY who are UGLIER than me
inside and out can feel so good about themselves!?
i KNOW im a good friend
a good gf a good daughter a good sister a good cuzin
but i wish i was as pretty on the outside as i feel on the inside
if that makes sense.. watever i just really need to let my thoughts out
and since no one listened i looked for sumplace 2 talk abt it and found it.

I don’t do it a lot
but I know people who do
and I’ve come to realize that it’s wrong.
I have been immature in the past
and partly stupid
for pretending that I was better than
someone else who had wronged me
and critized them
when I was actually stooping to their level,
which I don’t want to do again.
From now on, I will try to avoid any type of
negative commenting about anyone, [including those who
have hurt me] and persuade my friends
to do the same.
If I learn from my mistakes
instead of constantly pointing out someone else’s
just to get a kick out of it,
then I will grow as a person
and that is what I’ve been trying to do.
Finally, I will take this first step.
:)