Macintosh_crazy

There are too many things I worry about in my life. I worry about my weight, my friends, and my family. I’m always declining foods to eat and saying no when I’m slightly hungry. My sister is getting mad, saying I dont have to worry, but I still think:”What does she know? I look in the mirror and I see me fat! :(” I’m switching to the high school today, and I’m so worried I get some friends. My mom said I’m so shy it makes her devastated. I try, but now I’m worried if anyone will like me… No one did in my last school. I look for answers and guidance, but it never really comes. Maybe you have to wait for those things? But it’s taking so long! My mother’s depression medicine failed, and she was crying and talking about suicide and I was worried then too! I comforted her and tried to bring meaning back into her life… I really hope it worked. She seemed a little happier this week but she still cries and looks frustrated. I know life isn’t easy, but right now it seems near-impossible! I’m a very devout person, and would never take my life… but I still feel like curling up in a ball and staying there… Thanks for reading my view on life… hope yours isnt as dismal :|

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At work I’m being social with my fellow employees and not being so stiff… and whenever anyone asks me to do something that sounds fun I immediately accept… Though… when I was asked to go on a rollercoaster I refused… I get vertigo… xO