Mada

This is it, my biggest goal. All my life I’ve been that girl that blended easily into the background. I existed there, always unnoticed. Finally, after so many years, I realize that you have to make things happen for yourself (I guess I’m one of those slow learners, haha). No one is going to take you by your hand and lead the way. I think that by writing this out (so I can see it) it will make me want more of life.

Support, and comments are always welcome. I feel I have to prove to myself I’m not afraid to live, but any kind words you can offer would help so much.

I found some more pictures of Okinawa in my mother’s photobox (it’s more like a giant plastic container that slides out from under the bed). There was one of Mama-san, my babysitter back then, and I .. looking very much like a chubby little sumo wrestler. I took a close look at the picture and I could pick out little details, like the milk cartoon in the background that had Japanese writing on it, and the goofy look on my face (which I still have today).

Okay, I don’t take a walk everyday.. but it’s more than once a week! I plan on taking my little brother to the park or swimming pool to get us both out of the house.