Malliam

random acts of kindness are so gratifying.
i like doing them anonymously sometimes.
anyone have suggestions for RAKs? I could use more ideas. I run out after baking stuff for people and donating money.
i’m talking Raks for strangers not just people you know

..the beatles were being sarcastic when they said it was a warm gun.

For me being happy on my own is an important goal. But i sometimes feel conflicted about it. Why are we told that we are supposed to be happy alone? No one wants to be alone all the time. Why should i feel that my loneliness is illegitimate, if I really am alone.

At the same time I have fun hanging out with myself just like I have fun hanging out with friends. I like doing things like reading and taking walks or writing or listening to music. Even dancing is great alone because i get to focus on the feeling of moving my body without having to try to look hot, or even thinking about how it looks, (especially dancing without any mirrors around.)

Still as much as I enjoy my own company, I need people in my life. And I don’t think any one should feel bad about that.
Maybe we should just avoid having all our happiness depend on a single person, because that, it seems, is a recipe for unhappiness.

the problem I have is even if i plan to have just one drink I somehow always drink more than that.
Especially because I get tipsy and then forget that I planned to drink just one, and everyone around me is drinking more too so I feel fine about it at the time.
I am just going to have to practice more moderation