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that he’s been gone all day and I haven’t had a single panic attack about whether he’s really where he says he is. Also, yesterday in the grocery store I saw him glance at an attractive woman and genuinely didn’t care. Six months ago, that would have sent me into an absolute tailspin.
I’ve given this a lot of thought and while I realize that I’ll never be as fully “over” the affair as I wish I were, I’ve at least started to believe again that I’m the only woman in his life, and that he’s genuinely committed to this relationship. I understand the motivation behind the affair on some level, as much as I believe it was completely wrong, and any more conversations we have to have about it (because there will be times that it comes up, and it does still hurt to think about it) can be rational, adult discussions instead of incoherent screaming matches. I’m not over it, and my heart hasn’t completely healed, but I’ve forgiven him and I trust him again.
