Mandee

My boyfriend and I decided about a month ago that we’re going to try to have another baby. We’re ready for another, and more importantly my daughter is ready for a sibiling. Hell, she asked if there was a baby in my tummy yet and this was before we talked to her about it!
So I’ve checked fertility calenders and I’ve marked the dates on the calender so we can get some extra love in on the day I ovulate. I think my boyfriend is thinking I’m taking this too far, but I want a baby dammit!

I’ve avoided answering my mother’s calls for 3 days. I’m so tired of never living up to her expectations. She openly insults the GOOD people in my life, granted there’s only 2. She wants me to distance myself from them because she knows they support me leaving my boyfriend (or if you want to get technical common-law husband & father of my child). It’s things like this that just reaffirm that she cares for him more than me, even when I tell her of the abuse that I put up with from him.
According to her I’m fucking my daughter up just because she doesn’t have a ‘normal’ bedtime. I quit my job so I could stay home and look after my daughter since my boyfriend wasn’t helping out in anyway. I’m talking border-line neglect! He’d let her sleep all day so she’d be up all night, there were days where I’d be getting ready to leave for work and she’d STILL be up. I’ve gotten her to go to bed before 11pm now. Yet that’s not good enough, it’s never good enough for that woman.
She’s constantly bitching at me for things that aren’t important. Omigod, I dyed my bangs GREEN! I’m a horrible mother, right? sigh

I’ve finally come up with a new layout for my site! I’ve finished recoding a majority of it, I’m just cleaning up the resources section of it, it seems alot of sites have gone down since I started it! :D
Now I’m coming up with ideas for new sections and I’ve taken down the really stupid ones.
So much work, but I’m actually starting to enjoy coding again! :D