Therapy helped me a lot till now. I slowly start understanding myself. I feel I put all the small peaces of a puzzle together. I understand now what a central role my father has in my life and how much this harms me. I understand why I never let any men love me and why I leave them when they really care. I understand now why I don’t let myself be happy.. There are still many questions, at least it is getting better.
Mandorla's Life List
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1. accept myself
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2. stop worrying what others think about me, my decisions and my life
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3. stop negative self-talk
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4. Beat my depression
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5. overcome my low self esteem
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6. find a way to bring some happiness in my life
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7. not to feel ashamed of my acne
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8. stay single till i am a complete person again
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9. get over him
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10. finish my studies
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11. See a psychologist
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12. be a better teacher
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13. slowly kiss a complete stranger.
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14. find 10 things I like about myself
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15. respect myself more
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16. exercise daily
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17. keep a diary
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18. Have a totally different life by this time next year
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19. couchsurf
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20. Watch all of Hayao Miyazaki's films
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21. Buy myself a ring
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22. meet totoro
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23. Clean my room and keep it that way
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24. Spend a year in the UK
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25. Be a morning person
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26. have a healthy diet
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27. buy a diary
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28. think about why I feel to go back
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29. be more feminine
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30. stop picking my face for 2 weeks
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31. write
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32. wake up when my alarm clock goes off
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33. learn to drive
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34. buy a cornicello napoletano
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35. learn 100 kanji
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36. go to a sauna
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37. Get a tattoo
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38. read more hemingway
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39. know if i have PCOS
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40. Have a baby
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.. I don’t know if I should tell anyone that I am seeing a psychologist. My best friend knows, but no one else, not even my family. I just tell them the that I am going to see some friends, they must think that I have suddenly become very social.. My Dad would just say his usual cynical remarks and my Mom would be very worried and disappointed, because I could not solve my problems alone. I did not even tell the psychologist that no one knows I go there.
I don’t how to trust anyone again.. I have lost my faith in people in general and in my ability to judge someone too. I have been single for 8 months now and I am not able to go on a date. I simply don’t want to open up and let someone in my life again, I don’t want to give anyone the power to destroy everything what’s inside.
