If not, what is your excuse!
You don’t have to push someone out from under a falling piano to make a difference in their life but it does take a little effort – like releasing the muscles in your frown to form a pretty smile for someone; or a kind hand gesture while waiting at the traffic light. If you have all kinds of crazy energy maybe you could pick up the phone and push a few numbers, wash a car or mow a lawn. Maybe you know someone who would appreciate a nice meal, a visit, or even a card. Why not just do it?
I spent 30+ years struggling with this and in the end, after both of my parents were dead I realized that the inability to see the forest for the trees is just part of being a parent. Doesn’t mean they don’t love you – just that they might never understand you. I guess if I had it to do over again (and if I cared more about what my family or anyone else thought of me – which I didn’t and still don’t) I would not let there be any mistake about who I am and what I stand for.
Then I got a job and learned what wasting time really was. Life will pass you by and if you live long enough you will wake up one day and ask yourself what the heck happened. I did!
I used to think I wanted a cat. She was a beautiful baby, long black and white hair that stood straight up. Little did I know she had too brothers that were part of the package. I just wanted Babs but I wound up with half the litter – thought I go mad. The boys outlived Babs by 6 years and she was 13 when she died. One of the boys was a sprayer and he never stopped… wish the wife and I had of bought stock in Feliway! We had to move it was so bad. Twice!
I used to own an Island off the coast of Florida back in the 80s. It cost me $1.00/year to lease it from the government. I always wanted to build an A-frame house and boat dock on the island and make a vacation home of it but insurance was too high and there were some legal issues with the lease arrangement. The bugs were bad too – my wife and I fondly remember the place as Mosquitoville. I never wanted an island again after that one.
unless you want to make a career out of it or just have too much money this goal may well be just another trap. I learned to fly and bought a plane and now, several years later, I find that I fly less and less each year. Fuel prices are brutal right now and it doesn’t look like that will change anytime soon.