Marybons

Since it’s impossible to eliminate your account, try this:

1. Change your email. Put a fake one or someone you don’t know.
2. Change your password. Type a random password, one that you will forget 10 min later.
(Steps 1 and 2 are to relieve yourself from the temptation of going back)
3. Deactivate your account. Remember to click the checkbox where it says “Not to receive more info. from Facebook”.

I think it will go well from here. I’m not thrilled by the idea right now, but at least I’ll get a more real life. I’m planning to leave MSN Messenger within the next year. Can’t wait!

Today, I found out that on my mom’s side my aunt has suffered from depression almost her whole life (which led her to 3 miscarriages). And my grandpa also did, which was the reason (along with his 2nd cancer) that led him to commit suicide many years ago. Nice to know, clears all my doubts about the genetic origin of my condition. This just reaffirms that I can’t give in. I certainly won’t.

Well, what can I say… I think I’ve been depressed like, I don’t know, forever. But now is getting far worse, and I don’t know why, I think are lots and lots of things. Little and stupid things that, altogether, make my existence incredibly miserable. I’ve been looking at my wrists lately, to see if I’m brave enough to cut myself. I am apparently not, so that makes feel even more sad, and I cry and cry. Like twice a day. And my parents don’t understand, they tell me I’m weak and they ask like ‘why don’t you help yourself a bit and STOP CRYING?’ Well, #$x%x/!, because I simply can’t. I don’t want to eat, go out or do anything anymore. I don’t want to attend at my classes at university, or see anyone of my family, or my friends, anyone. The only thing that comforts me is sleep, cuz is the way to escape from this life of #$x%x/! PLEASE HELP! I CAN’T STAND IT!!!!