Maryluu

I want to impart upon my 2 granddaughters that they are loved by me and that they are a vital part of my own life. I decided this recently and have decided to start spending time with them regularly, just us.
I hadn’t done this before because Desiree was rather fussy but now she is 2 years old, and it’s do-able.
I started today by taking us to Raging Waters, the water park. They seemed to have a blast.
I want them each to have memories of time with their grandma and I want the majority of these memories to bring smiles to their faces and the warm feelings that come from being loved.

Since my mother’s death a year ago, my sister has refused to give my daughters their only inheritance left them by my mom – 2 rings – one for each of them. I think she may be mental, as this is not the 1st incident of this type. She has 3 children in prison and is, overall, not a nice person. She has, in effect, stolen from her nieces. To make it worse, she changes the story every so often as to why she can’t give them. I stole them; she pawned them; my mother said not to give them after all; she is not ready, etc. I hate her for this and the ugliness she has brought out in me.
Maybe one day I will not hate her.

It’s more difficult to find someone at my age (50). I have been on my own for many years now, probably about 8 or 10, and I would like to live my last years with a partner. Not that I’m dying any time soon – hope not! But I feel so differently now than I was as a young person, and feel I can offer someone my best now.