Me9an008

Some of my so-called “friends” use me all the time. It’s the little things that really get to me. They ask to use a pen at school, never return it, and ask for another one two days later. They’ll ask me to help them with school work, but then completely ignore me the next class. I mean, there are MANY more reasons to support my attitude towards them. I have my better friends, but the other ones just use me all the time. But, unless it’s something major, I’m going to let them continue using me. “Kill ‘em with kindness,” as my mother has always said.

Even though I have come a LONG way since I was in Junior High, I am still EXTREMELY shy. I am comfortable around people up until the point I realize how much attention I am getting. After this, I can feel my face turning red, I get really sweaty, begin to shake, and sometimes my face even twitches. Usually at that point I look down, try to hide my face, and end whatever conversation I was having. I absolutely HATE living this way, and I have tried so many times to change, but have never succeeded. I become really depressed at times and just wish to disappear.

I’ve heard the only way to come out of your shell, is to be comfortable with yourself. That is what I want more than anything.