MerryMeri

I can’t really explain why, but I’m terribly afraid of talking on the phone with somebody. Maybe it’s because I’m somewhat of a perfectionist.. [What if I say something wrong?].. Or that it makes me nervous that I can’t see the person’s face, so I can’t read their body language or emotions.

I can only hold a conversation over the phone with the people closest to me. But I’m so tired of people getting pissed off that I don’t pick up, or call them back!

Gah!!

I’m very slowly getting better at chess. I’m starting to look at the whole board more, and actually plan out moves. Any tips on how I can get better, besides more practice?

When I think about traveling the world, it kind of seems like one of those fanciful, impossible, “wishful-thinking” dreams that might never come true..

But I just can’t see myself settling down. I can’t see myself sitting at home, cooped up in some crummy little town, while the world is still out there for me to see- All the sights and experiences I’d be missing out on..!

Why would anybody pass up on seeing the world? Why isn’t this everybody’s true goal?

Oh, if only…